+ _ My . [A]rtificial . Fairytale _ +

2012-02-01T10:14:00.006+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Ahahaha~ ♥

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy *o1o212*.

Fabricated February. ♥

Wednesday.

When she was just a girr-ii-ii-irl~
She expected the woooorld~

But it flew away from her reaaach~

So she ran away in her sleee-ee-eep~

& dreamed of Para-para-paradise~ Para-para-paradise~ Para-para-paradise~

Everytime she closed her eyes~

Nyehh~ Woke up late so pon-ing school.

Been a while since I last skipped class.

But Imma put this time to good use & try completing my work.

I don't have class tomorrow either. Need to draw the scenes for Visual storytelling.

Graphic Design UT3 draft

& Graphic Design really knows how to test my patience.

Stroking my nerves everytime. 4 more pages to go! Not forgetting R&D.

Patience is a form of virtue.

& half of Iman.

p.s. Why are you so sweet? Gahh. -.-

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

Develop a thirst for the truth.

2012-01-29T00:18:00.009+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

gawshh..

Dear diary,, Sat-dayy *28o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Saturday.

Hi, I'm random.

Y U SO random Vee?

Goshh.. I dunno. ._. But yeah I'm random. >.< !!

So anyway.. I've been studying/researching.

In my whole life I never had a doubt where truth was.

I just didn't know exactly what the truth was in excruciating detail.

So I'm walking towards it to find out.

Understand that I'm a kind of person who lingers.

I'd like to think of myself as a wanderer. Going zigzag & taking detours.

But as long as I get there. & I put as much effort into getting back to that direction.

Also kinda wish I was a guy.

Yes dudes.. if you knew me at all really you'd know it's not the 1st time.

Reason? It's less troublesome. You don't have PMS.

I really.. am at a loss when I do. Because I can't do what I should.

Feels like I'm wasting valuable points.
& soon you'll come to find that life is a test;

& that everything here is temporary.
& I of all people know it's difficult to be rid of my laziness.

So my tip? We should have a constant search for motivation.

p.s. check this out! So cool~ ♥

A muslim convert usually has more insights to Islam than an occassional born-muslim.
Trust me.. it's true. Because it's an asset we take for granted.

Before anyone converts to Islam, they want to be sure.
So they try to find any kind of information they can lay their hands on.

Only till they find the truth, only till they're convinced.. only then will they accept it.

Unlike us who are born thinking I'm muslim because mama told me I am.

& I dare say that if you studied it properly, it's impossible to find Islam illogical.

Out of everything in the world, this is what I'm most confident of.
What could it hurt you? Research. Get curious. Find the right sources.

If not the religion, grasp the moral values. Because I'm doing it too. Learning.

Like philosophy ya know?
& to the people around me.. for the record;
I couldn't care less if you post tweets like "The religion is fine. It's the hardcore followers."
As far as I'm concened, mine isn't 24/7.

& I feel like you only say that because you're irked/guilty.
Because at times.. I get irked & guilty too. I feel ya. But stop that.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

2012-01-26T15:20:00.002+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Talk of the Aliens, ghost stories & seeing fireworks..

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy *25o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Thursday.

It's already mid thursday.

Yesterday was nice~ =)

Telling Nisa my most embarrassing scenarios.

She sure had a good laugh. Although I'm sorry for making her wait.

Had band prac; as usual Ahmad made me play some parts either an octave lower or higher.

The pressure. But I can do it. Though I was sleepy & my fingers were numb.

Blood don't flow through my hands well these days..

After a bit of pressure my hands feel like they've been in antarctica.

But deck was beautiful. We saw fireworks. Almost screamed of glee. ^^

Started with ghost stories, ended with funny ones. Had a great laugh.

It's been a while.

Thinking about it, gosh I'm so not natural.

The way I walk, talk, my voice, my movements.. I see myself as awkward.

The awkward kid. Ahh well~

For the record, I don't wanna be fat..

& I'm not but.. Sweets are difficult for me to let go of.

Spendthrift for sweets I swear. It's not really a good thing.

I'm scared I might spend all my moolahh to become a diabetic.

Wooaaaaaahhh no. Dear God please no.

Gawshh; I really need to get a good acoustic guitar.

& get my full hi-lo rocker.

& the shoes at JP.

Mmnhh kayy.
Save up for my licenses.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

2012-01-25T01:28:00.003+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Still in my own world.

Dear diary,,

Jello January. ♥

Monday.

천사.

천국.

왠지? 자꾸만...

나 천사를 만나고싶어.

오늘.. 지금. 이게, 무슨 말씀.. 나도 몰라.

근데 다른 천사는 안돼. 그냥 너 뿐이야..

What the hell am I thinking..

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

You can't help it.

2012-01-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Feeling Alien.

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *24o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Tuesday.

Each day, he chases after the moon.

But no matter how far the lil' man reaches out, the moon is constantly..

Chasing after the Sun.

How sad it must feel.. for the little man to see his heart;

at it's brightest.. when facing the Incredible Sun.

It's at that moment that he knows..

The Sun is his Moon's source of glimmer.

Always reflecting the strength of the proud Sun..

He feels helpless. Even though the Sun never stops for the Moon.

He feels that he is powerless. The chases never ending.

& most times.. he feels lonely.

Even though he sees his Moon almost every night.. he has no effect on her.

the only one who could make her crimson.. or make her full.. is the Sun.

& at times.. beyond his wildest fears he sees, the Sun smile warmly at the Moon.

Unable to do anything he can only sit there still..

each day.. thinking, "How lucky they must be.."

His world.. plunged into darkness every Solar Eclipse.

The little man can't help ease his own heart.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

지선의 "어떡하죠"

2012-01-22T18:47:00.003+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

All that glitters is not gold.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy *22o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Sunday.

그냥.. 니 얼굴이 안보면 좋겠다.

Hoping to create an altogether new; language of my own.

One that no one understands..

One that makes perfect sense.

Just to tell you the story.

& remind me of mine.

Dawn of the Double Rainbow Era.
I bet there's going to be a few more.
Shit bricks beetches.
Kid's just sitting there. Move kid.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

Eee.

2012-01-19T18:06:00.007+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Bipolarity.

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *19o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Thursday.

Hais. The sweet guy hates me doesn't he. Feel so fugged.

Lad won't even look me in the eye. I miss my friend. But that was brief. & 2 years ago.

Sakit siol. What am I supposed to do with you?

What's the right move?

I long for you, by me. As a friend. Or is that honestly too much to ask from you.

I.. really just wanna hang out & laugh with you again one day. Totally comfortable.

I hate emotions.

I miss people.

Fcuking loser.

Still feel fugged.

Met up with Nash for smoke break. Electric cigarettes. Grape flavour. Cool!

Some bestfriend huh? Been so long since we hung out. & we live 2 blocks away. -.-

& I borrowed Nisa's lappy for UT again. Yay. Hahs.

I feel all "floaty". Like my feet aren't touching the ground.

& I'm in ultimate sulk mode.
Because of my 1st semester internship I won't be able to try for Student leader.
Freshman Orientation. & I won't be able to go to Thailand. Even if I could, there's no cash.

I really want to go Thailand. I made Nisa & Yaya promise to take loads of pictures.

Oh yes. This last thing.
A girl with long straight hair and blue contact lens tapped me at booklink.
We had this whole conversation about how my hairstyle changed & stuff..

but I still don't know who she is really.

Seriously can't remember. Wish her friends called her name. ._.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

Ahh.

2012-01-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

Nnghhh~

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *19o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Thursday.

17o112: Ytd's Capoeira thing was cool. Bimba. LoL.

Didn't know Kak Ana could do all those spinny2 thingies. (Somersaults. Hekk~)

18o112:

Concepts of Persuasion module & UT after.

Glad people liked our display. Feedbacks like "Eh cool ahh." or "Creative".

Glad I found that nylon string. (Long story) It looked good enough.

After class we had to remove the tapes but we left the signboard.

Then we dragged the chair under the signboard.

"Just because you don't see it, doesn't mean it doesn't see you."

That'll freak the hell outta people. Yay.

Used Nisa's laptop for UT coz the macbook I borrowed doesn't have UT client.

After UT Suriah showed that stupid video about that stupidly sweet dog.

Hate those kind of videos. Stupid shit make me cry.

Stupid.

K. Need to make time for my book. It's under Yaya's name.

"Before I forget -Melissa hill"

If you could hold on to just one memory, what would it be?

Ahh k.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

Capoeira!!~ Makuleleeee~

2012-01-17T15:44:00.004+08:00

♥LaLaLand™

humffumphh.

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *17o112*.

Jello January. ♥

Tuesday.

Spending too much time trying to reproduce work to it's perfection;

when what I should be doing is creating my own.

But there's nothing wrong with trying out a couple of things.

I'm gathering bits of pieces here & there to add to my own style.

My pencils melted. D= *seriously

So I am pretty much on a strictly pen-only diet. Not like I can help it.

My rendition of a graphic I found. (Still in progress.. I'm in class.)

A whole lotta practice on penmanship stylings.

Practice makes perfect but Art is subjective really.

In my opinion I work way better when I stop trying too hard.
I have this illness that makes me pay too much attention to details.
It can be a blessing or a curse. Eitherway, throughout my life..

There are times when less is more.

Less is elegant, sophisticated, raw, captures attention.

Hell yeahh. ;) Ya know it~ Hahaha! Sick kid. Sorry babies!

I'm just.. bored this days. >=

Still haven't drawn any life portraits since that time though. =/
p.s. Gonna watch Kak Ana's Capoeira group today! xD
With Yaya & Nisa~ =)

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious