Jul 18, 2011:
*sigh..
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*18o711* .Mondayy.
Lu!...diam sua. Haha. So rude.
Maybe not talking to you is a good option.
But i won't allow it. You don't care? Me neither.
I shall be your problem. Talk to you & irritate you for a long time to come
But for the time being..
I don't need this. Not this week.
Classmates are such
sweethearts.
♥ They bought cake for all the July babies..
Naming, Afiqah officially, me, Aqilah & Elaine. xD
In fact, they're too sweet. -.-
Ended up smelling like Chocolate at the end of the day.
Hahaha!!~ Arse.
RT @Himynameisromeo:
"Think thoroughly before saying "I love you too."
Smart boy.
How about.. not?
I'm only 18.
Well.. soon. =/
What do i know?
I know
nothing.
Only God knows babe. Loooong after. IF only.
*sighh.... i miss Sang..
So much for seeing my lil vietnam bro 2 years down the road.
Even Watermelon boy's gone too. Maybe to their mothers.
So i guess.. It's a good thing.
& i don't even know if Sang got my letter yet.
i miss my star..
because usually in times like these he's the one who'd cheer me up.
Because he knows how to make me laugh i'd hate him for it.
Because he's awesomely perfect & when you've got a taste of perfection..
i miss panda..
just because. He knows the reasons..
but he let it drag on too long. & he'll continue to let it.
But i can't say how much i miss him. How much.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:09 PM
:J
*Disappointed..
Dear diary,, Mehh .What's there to be disappointed at?
Last time i checked, you looked quite happy.
How'd ya manage to pick a fight with me online??
I haven't seen you in ages because of tests!
Does it really entertain you guys that much? huh?
Aiming 'pm's on msn at me? Well screw this.
I'll continue talking to you anyway.
Even if I'll embarass myself when I'm forced to talk to breathing walls.
If I had a choice, I won't choose this way. Unlike you.
TalkingToStars. ♥
Help me out Ris..
LiL♂Miss[V]exatious
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:44 AM
Jul 17, 2011:
*breathes in..
Dear diary,, Sad-dayy*16o711* .Saturdayy.
I shan't tell you..
You shan't have to put up with it.
Close your eyes.. count to ten.
DIY Magic.
One.. two.. three.. four..
five.. six.. seven.. eight.. nine..
Words are..
inaffective.
Redundant.
Uncalled for.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:46 AM
Jul 15, 2011:Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind..
~.~
Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*15o711* .Fridayy.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind..
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind..
& i've recently found out that my girlfriend..
paid to have all her memories with me erased.
Like as if she never met me.
Before this I wanna wish DBHB Ro & Matin a very happy 18th birthday.
Hope you guys liked our surprise. =)
Nutella cake!!~ So funny~ Waiting for Shanice to upload pictures.
Kinda wish we did it at the outside garden instead of inside the Lawn itself.
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Mary: "Blessed are the forgetful,
for they get the better even of their blunders.
-Nietzsche. Beyond Good and Evil.
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.
-Alexander Pope. Eloisa to Abelard poem.
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"Yes.. how happy is the blameless vestal's lot?
& i question the sins that come from their decisions.
Would it truly be a much better, maybe even ideal alternative?
If it was an option..? Everyone would wish to forget.
Impressive are the numbers to which I've predicted, deliberately will.
More impressive? The numbers of the forgotten. A sad plague.
What is the worst of misery but the loved ones of those with Alzheimer's?
An endless cycle. If it was an option.. everyone would choose to forget.
Better be forgetting than forgotten. If forgotten, let's forget.
Something worth forgetting must be something of definite value.
In which is equivalent to something that kills when remembered.
And the forgotten.. that something.. that someone..
As that pang of misery hits, should I want to forget as well.
What if I told you.. you're one I'd love to forget.
If it was an option.. I'd want to be rid of this knowledge, having ever met you.
Something worth forgetting must be of definite value. Kills me inside slowly.
Because to keep you around is nothing but selfish.
Love is all about timings.
This is like running to catch the last train, knowing it's too late.
& for having treated you that way, justice served.
I'll be like the old flame. Who lingers in thoughts of what could've been.
The answers will come with me through the last prayer of the day.
TalkingToStars. ♥
Labels: Brainwashing
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 8:44 PM
:
hmm.. =)
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*14o711* .Thursdayy.
Late for schoool~
The first time i felt that sleepy in class.
After school I met up with Yaya & Nisa & Auda to chill.
Played a couple of songs on Nisa's friend's guitar..
Met up with the DSA kids at Artbites~
Went home with 'em. =D
Upon reaching home much too early..
Walked around KeatHong park alone.
It's right across the street from home.
Decided to leave my stuff at home only to get locked out.
String to the key broke so there was no way to retrieve it.
The only way was if my mum used her keys.
Luckily I've already planned to meet up with Cheng.
Had fun chilling really. Fish & chips for dinner!
Had to walk through Kopitiam to KeatHong.
Noticing truly how awesomely bright & silver & yolk-like the moon is..
Lots of beautiful stars out. But of course~ Nothing but the best in Cck. ;P
& dinner on the roof of some parking lot.
Saw a cool Exclaimation mark on one of the buildings from up there. =D
Chilled & relaxing night.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:15 AM
Jul 12, 2011:
PDT. =/
Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*12o711* .Tuesdayy.
What she has~ What she wants~ What she needs~
Thick.
There in her satchel wherever she goes.
It will come in handy when the world gets scary.
It's what she needed really.. shut off the evils from the world.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:40 AM
Jul 11, 2011:When we die.. we die alone.
School teaches you good stuff unknowingly. =/
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*11o711* .Mondayy.
But i forgot what was it they teach you exactly. Ahaha!!~
*Doofus. Shyatt I'll type it down when i remember. Vee!! Honestlyy? -.-
Anyway.. crack down too easy under pressure.
This makes me stupid & a burden sometimes.. Must get stronger. =)
Instead of stowing stress away.. i should really learn to face & defeat.
Because stowing it away, I'm telling you.. not good.
You might think you've got it.
"Got it under control.. it's okay, nothing can break me. Got my shit together.
Then someone asks you.. "Dude! You aitte?
Dayyum even Hoover dam starts to crack. All hell breaks loose.
Let's do yoga~ hahaha. =(
I hope any of you who might have developed a disliking for me would stop.
Coz you know.. if given the choice I'd rather not hate you. Whoever.
Random? Sure. LoL.. it has nothing to do with my rant today but..
I see myself as someone unlikeable whenever I break down.
I might get irked easily by the slightest movement made.
Short-lasting but very annoying attitude problem i should adjust.
i don't see it as minor. It's exhausting you know..?
To hate someone, to get irked, to feel stressed with work.
Easier to play Bob Marley, loosen up & chill singin'
"Don't worry~ about a thing!
Which is what i felt just now during dinner with the Ignite crew.
Awesome feeling.
When you've only recently met some people & all you have are good vibes.
Uber fun. & i really need to get my skates soon. Seriously.
Need to get 250bucks stat. ='((
Material possessions? Yeahh i know right? =X
But jyeahh. Wheels make me calmer. Happier. Free-er.
|Babe you never loved me. =)
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:40 PM
Jul 10, 2011:
Mehhehh.
Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*1oo711* .Sundayy.
So many deadlines to meet!
So many things to complete.. So little time.
've got my drawing test materials from BrasBasah..
bumped into Shirley there. =)
Explored town a lil' bit more but a bit unsatisfied by the pictures i took,
the quality of which i took the pictures in & the architectural subjects in the pictures itself.
Hi readers!
I've got important something to say. & i'll make it short.
No matter what i say here.............
the outcome of life in general will be the same in the end.
Don't bother too much.
Won't efect anything!
^^V
*sigh~ deadlines..
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:48 PM
Jul 8, 2011:
This is dedicated to those fine people in my life.
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*o7o711* .Thurdayy.
Jyeahh. I know. It's actually Friday.
Sorrehh. Very asdfghjkl; ytd. So i tried to sleep.
Heehee~ Mama kissed me on the cheeks before goin' out in the morn!
Mama you don't know how much i needed that.. ♥
& to the cute dude at the interchange with the sweetest smile, gentle gaze,
i needed that too thanks. hahaha~
Rare to see people smile at you in the morn..
Usually they're all so Cranky & Rushing &.. Late?
RT @Me:
I was thinking.. I'm so blessed. I have the most awesome-EST mum
in the world, my traditional dad hasn't had the chance to nag at me..
I've classmates that SCOLD me when I don't do my work.
I met a lot of caring friends this semester..
[ 've got people who worry for me when i'm down.. ]
& above all, i matured in a way.
Can tolerate unreasonable people who just hates for no reason.
I'm clean of official enemies~ =D
& babe.. if you read this like you say you do the nights before..
God knows how much i wish i could've treated you better.
But I'm not that mean to you am I? Coz..
i find myself unintentionally treating people worse when in ur circumstance.
Remember how I said you were an Awesome friend?
Yeah, you're a HECK of an awesome friend. I won't ever lie about that.
I appreciate the attention. Dude yu're the only 1 that seemed at all genuine.
Seriously thankful that you showed care & concern. There for me.
Sorry that you had to apologise for caring. 've got problems with people who..
see me as more than i actually am. Really im not that girl.
You said you don't care what i think coz that's what you think.
Well i don't want you to think that coz this is what i know. Human limitations.
It makes me feel like a phony. A hypocrite. Whatever you said.
& if you found her already.. dude go for it. Get what you deserve.
Life is short. Take risk, take chances. 'll land yerself some place right for ya.
What's worth having is worth fighting for. God willing. Insya'allah.
If you still find me as someone deserving to be your friend..
Thanks man. But i should warn you.. i'm naturally like this. =( I tried to stop.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:39 PM
Jul 7, 2011:Filled this post with random words. =D
Inception. Dissection.
Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*o6o711* .Wednesdayy.
A lot of things to get done.
None of which I keep track of. #Procrastination
When the time comes.. shall i be struck with karma & panic.
Deadlines sure can kill. Diggin' my own grave. hha!
Wake up Wake up Wake up!!~ #DreamMode.
Snap out of it. GET TO FFFF-ing WORK.
Finally put in effort in my drawing homework after a while.
Late submission. & yeahh.. sorry.. I can't help it.
I'm a Cancer-ian. I don't believe in astrology but..
I REALLY HATE being forced to do something i love.
Make any sense to ya? No?
I'm not a nut job coz it does to a lot of us.
The more stakes you hang on that "thing you love..
the more the love crumbles when you trip & topple over.
Where'd my motivation go?
've got no one playin' the role of my Inspira~tion.
Sad.. is the Adrenaline that's missing from my life. So sad..
I'm an unhealthy drug junkie who has her doses stashed away by monsters.
Anyone dare to take the challenge?
How good are you at getting the Adren' pumping?
Blood rushing through veins? You better be good. Either you..
Get me hysterically frightened or impossibly excited & anxious.
Do.. the
impossible.
Kayy I'm crappin'.
Bubuu~ Chacha!!~ x2.
Roll around~ Tippy2~ Ruff2~ Snuggle2~ Rumble2 boom shabay!
Ahahahaha~ 've been missing this cartoon. Nostalgia won't just pass me by.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:16 AM
Jul 4, 2011:
hi.
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*o4o611* .Mondayy.
Bloody hungry. Stomach in knots.
Well.. after Ignite I pretty much stoned.
Haha! Sunday.. Sunday.. Did my best to try & complete homework
Mehh. How did that work out? Nyehh~~~ not so good.
So ended up getting my hair layered before heading to NUH to visit ZanaBabyJr.
Poor baby.. She said it hurts. The numbing med didn't last long enough.
When she woke up, the painkillers weren't in her system yet.
& i've got no clue what to say to or do for her.
Awesome sis i am. Wow. *sighh..
Seriously. It's the same awkward feeling you get when..
someone you care about feels so bad but you can't relate.
You're brain is thinking of a million ways to cheer them up or at least..
keep them entertained but the only words at the tip of your tongue are..
blagurburblefaggufraffamuhhaffuhhmehhnyehh~ ngehh..
Could have been better if it was daytime & i could make noise &
jump around all hyper making a fool out of myself getting her to laugh.
Plus i had a bit of a bitter moment with Daddy'Ogrouchy moments before.
I'm telling you.. BigDaddy? Not so much the LoveyDovey mushywushy type.
Even worse was after that when my gastric started acting up.
Wanted my dinner to be inst. noodles at 7eleven somewhere around cck.
Got into a huge argument with mummy dearest. Really huge i lost it.
The police was called on us. But by the time they arrived..
We already sorted things out. Yeah we rock.
Guys i tell my friends? Yeahh they're okay.
Guys i tell my mother..? Hahaha~ Woahh.
My mumma's my best friend. We 'cool like that.
But when we fight..? BOY do we fight. =( Should really stop.
Today.. drawing class scuked away my soul. Almost left with nothing.
Mindfcuked. Mindfcuked. Mindfcuked..
Ohh goodness gracious God!
Your totally AWESOME-ness just leaves my jaw hanging.
Sculpting the universe atom by atom & running everything in clockworks.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:35 PM
:
Woohoo~ Best line-up EVER.
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*o2o611* .Saturdayy post on a Sunday night.
Syiokk.
Honestly.. Ignite Music Fest 2011 was an awesome experience.
Learnt a lot like how to coil cables the right way~ hahaha!
But no really. The role i had gave me responsibility of paying more attention.
I have to be more aware of my surroundings. Can't afford screw ups.
Must always double check. Be prepared. Hopefully there's a next time. =)
Replug!!~ [+RpAlumniBand]
Awesome job guys!!~
Way to get the ball rolling~ ♥
I'm sure we all learnt that musicians.. would all want perfection.
Like what Tony said..
"You might call them assholes now but when you make it big..
people might call you an asshole." -Cheers to that
Saw a lot of weird things these 3 days..
Really. Like this dude, Leonard.
I want.. his hat.
Really i mean all musicians would want a perfect sound you know..
It is to be expected. But the great ones are those that can keep it together.
Either never lost their cool or at least recollect it & not keep a grudge.
In the end we are all human. Thr's never perfection where humanity's involved.
We had Dj Ross from 98.7fm as guest host.
West Grand Boulevard
The Sets Band.. Tacit Aria.. Even West Grand Boulevard,
Caracal, Fatskunks & Last but not least, PlainSunset~
Friday's Lineup was Jammerz Arena, Giants Must Fall,
SIXX, InchChua & the Metric System & Typewriter.
Caracal
Great crowd we had.
Sad thing though.. not a lot of mosh pits this year.
Scared of the mud? Last year's crowd movement was way \m/
Imagine the shock i had when even the FatSkunks'
irresistable swag sound didn't get them moving.
Had a load of fun dancing back stage~
Ahahaha~ CocaCola~ Woo!!~
FatSkunks
Plainsunset
With PlainSunset as closing act my life is complete.
Remember the smile i had plastered on when they finally
started playing the River song. Almost tore my face in half.
Saw Azzrul in the crowd!!~ Diehard fan. Stuck a tongue at him.
Dude took out his pants. HAHA!!
Quirky bassists.
Every musician's dream to play in their underwear..
In front of a big crowd. \m/
& dude i gotta stop searching for you in crowds.
Almost got caught looking. It's easier for you to see me.
But if I get caught looking at you, by you.. I die. Hahahahaha~
FOH left, stage right. Guess I'm just a fool beetch. A fool.
I don't know how i am now. =/
Can't say heart beats for you & shit but..
the staring part comes automatic. Controls for manual jammed.
None of that fluttery butterfly shit. I still question what-ifs.
p.s. UGHH!!! A total pool-of-regret plunge right now.
Why the hell did i have to care about seeming professional.
It was a one time thing & i was so close to the bands!
Might as well get some autographs & pictures right? *sobs
#Damnit.
TalkingToStars. ♥
Labels: Ignite Music Festival 2011
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 4:38 AM
♫|Nostalgia|
|Melancholy|♪
