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Jan 31, 2011:


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♥LaLa Land™
Wait Wait Wait!!
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Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*31o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Monday.
Aww~




It's the last day of January.
*pout~
It's the last day for a lotta things.



Ohh!
No one's pulling me back.
waiiee~ xD
Ehk you KNOW ahh~

Early in the morn.. i grabbed my neighbour's umbrella..
Upon reaching the bus stop the handle fell out..
but i thought it could still be used so i tried to slot it backin~
Then at the interchange i pressed the button & the umbrella..
SKY ROCKET OUT OF THE HANDLE! 

LoL! Ohh goshh i burst out giggling like mad to myself
trying to fix the poor hopeless thing. ahaha~
That set me smiling like crazy~
Till now I'm still jumping around. ^^V
 CREAM PUFFS!!

GoodLuck can come from Bad ones..
Pray & Believe..
God is Very much there even if you can't see him..
So i finally bought the blackpepper sausage that's been sold out till now.


You know.. us girls..
Sometimes you might wonder about why the hell we think too much.
but i guess.. you need to know that.. sometimes we're fine with it.
This is the part of my life where.. Like in the movies..

Being me is okay.. & if you can't accept that.
Then i can't do anything. & i can't change.
Won't. & that's not what you need.
Sometimes there are things that people don't need.

&if so, i accept that.
To everyone in general..
More like.. to my friend who tweets.



TalkingToStars.







LiLMiss[V]exatious




SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:28 PM



:Skip this one too! NONSENSE.



♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*21o111* .





Day8.
Three turn ons.
Ahh. CRAP.
Nonsense sia!






LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:35 AM



Jan 30, 2011:Family rental mart. Where you can rent a place to stay & a family. ^^V



♥LaLa Land™
Kecyqq landing sedap jek!
Like as if my bed is his.


Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*3oo111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Sunday.
O.o||
 
This is weird.
Tell me how this isn't weird?
 This is weird.









Mum complaining to Casper about my brother? Did she trade sons?
& Casper.. seems to like having a mother.
but why won't he? i have the COOL-EST mum in the world. xD
Except for the part where a random, totally non-blood related dude
is staying at my house with MY family.
For the rest of his life? Really?


Almost as weird as my ex living here a couple of mths back.
Now THAT.. was..
...
but hey what's new? Not like this's the 2nd, 3rd, 5th, 27th, 200th time right?
No. probably the 1000th person he brought home to crash here.
Ahh the memories.. One of which i felt i almost got a permanent sis.
Didn't go down very well.. but i got exs.


Gonna go celebrate Shaiful's birthday later.


My GOD.. Mum!
You're still talking to him?
hahaha~




TalkingToStars.







LiLMiss[V]exatious




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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 2:36 PM



Jan 29, 2011:



♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*29o111* .





Day7.
Four turn offs.
Please don't start.
Hate misunderstandings.






LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:27 PM



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♥LaLa Land™



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What am i doing exactly?
Trying to drown my previous post.
Please don't bother reading it.

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LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:24 PM



:SKIP this one people.. i just feel like preaching.



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tch.




Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*29o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Saturday.
so..





 
"I think you're someone who can understand me."
So I've heard..
Then what about me?
I keep trying to understand everyone but then who's for me?
Am i selfish? I'm sorry but it's unfair.
I don't act like im there. I listen. I understand. I want to help where i can.
But it doesn't go both ways.


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& what are you looking at exactly?
or more like WHERE are you looking at?
If you really are so pathetic as to use the "L" word all the time.
"Love" this. "Love" that. "Love" him. "Love" her.
Do you know what it really means? That word.
So many definitions. So many ways to act upon.
But nobody's truly got it right on purpose. Stumble on maybe..


Let me ASK YOU.
Who's the 1st person you think of when you hear the damned word.


Is your heart beating faster? Do you feel the butterflies.
Or like you've been punched in the gut?
Or 've been stabbed in the stomach?
If not that's not Love fool.


Imagine never seeing her again.
Never talking with him again.
Never hearing her giggle.
Never seeing his smile.
Does it hurt? Like you've been slapped.
Like you've been hit by a trailer that lost control crushing you downhill.


People i neglect to tell you this, of which i have experience too many times.
Love is apparently about timing.
If you don't grab it then & there, you're gonna lose it.



So just SHUT UP. Don't complain or anything.


It was your fault in the first place.
In fact, it was mine.
I just couldn't figure it out in time.
It feels almost like before, when i didn't know how to treasure.
The meaning.. behind that cursed word i just didn't.
& lost the one that may be the only one who will always..
mean that much no, most to me.


Completely W.A.S.T.E.D.
well.. there goes another one.


Don't get me wrong.. this might not be MY rude awakening my friend.
It could be yours.
For ironically, i woke up years ago.
Slapped in the face i was.
i just had too many barriers to overcome.
too many obstacles to jump over.
too many walls to break.

i didn't make it in time.
We didn't establish trust. Didn't build the basis of understanding.
& lacked the foundation to build a mere anything that would hold up.
He didn't trust me, & i couldn't trust him enough to explain.
We did not entertain.




Just Another Overly Dramatic Play
on stage in a dark theatre that has now been enclosed behind majestic velvet red curtains.




Think about it.





LiLMiss[V]exatious




SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:02 PM



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♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*28o111* .




Day6.
Five people who mean a lot in no order whatsoever.
Love is overrated. Oxygen has more meaning.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 6:49 AM



Jan 28, 2011:


♥LaLa Land™
No. chill.
Me jokin'. ^^V


Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*28o111* .



JabberwockyJanuary.
Friday. 
I've been in a good mood. ^^V


 
i don't know.
Who's worth trusting these days..?







've got nothing to type.
helluuuu~ i am LindsayLohaaan~
AHAHA! EPIC.
ok random.

Meeting Nas after sch.
LaptopMovies! Library~
Only for a while. Need to finish DMA online portfolio.
Tch. SWF Flash files.. Chores..


LoackerQuadratini FTW!!~



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o835hrs:

So lazy. I hate tedious Adobe crap. -.-
Cabbed home with Nas, Warren & Kak In.
Just got home from WdlndsWaterfront.
Bumped into the replugios after lunch and taking a walk.
Liyana, Ahmad, Johnson, Kevin & Don was there too. =)





TalkingToStars.







LiLMiss[V]exatious




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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 3:26 PM



Jan 27, 2011:The lessons i've learnt.


♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*27o111* .




Day5.
Six things you wish you'd never done.
LiveLifeWithNoRegrets.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:15 PM



:No content.



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O.o||
Adobe CS4 is total MindFcuk.



Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*27o111* .



JabberwockyJanuary.
Thursday.






 
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HappyBirthday AzfarJ. ^^V
sometimes i forget you're my ex.
or that we were ever close.. =/
or that i was really in love with you.









Ssss!!!
AdobeCS4. AdobeCS4. AdobeCS4. AdobeCS4. AdobeCS4.

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So confusing.
So tedious.
So ughh!
Vexatious. Very.



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hmm..
Will it be worth it?
Or will the consequences be dire..
i wonder.. what's my next move?



im the MadScientist.
& the MindFcuk tactics were merely diversions..
To what i have in store for Feb.
if i go through with it.


what i did after sch..





LiLMiss[V]exatious









TalkingToStars.

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when i got that phone call. 21o7o9.



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When you can't speak, because you know that if you do, you will cry.

im smiling..♥ =)



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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 2:20 PM



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♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*26o111* .




Day4.
Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
RandomRandomRandom.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:13 AM



Jan 26, 2011:i hate spams. -.-



♥LaLa Land™
Ahh.
Oppz.



Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*26o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Tuesday.
Darn it.








Just realised i forgot to do ytd's Rj..
When the daily grades came out.
The problematic factor of an effective facilitator.
woohoohoo!!~ a simple C.




Anyway.. i Love being late!
Coz once it's 5 after 8 and a half am..
The line for the bus become less apparent & more convenient. ^^V
it's really how you use your circumstances to your benefit. xD



& i RanDoMLy felt like not painting my face today.
So i didn't. Guess i had my fill of art. =/
So all i have on is my foundation..
*a futile attempt at making my everlasting sunburnt skin white.
& lipgloss.
Need i explain? Really? -.-


Today's task..
The irony of AtoZ.
The Race of a lifetime!!~
Photo Journal Collection~





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:32 AM



Jan 25, 2011:Okay NEXT!


♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*25o111* .




Day3.
Eight ways to win your heart.
People you can just skip this really.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:55 PM



:Do you have the dancing aptitude?



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i wanna be there again.
That feeling..
Freely.



Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*25o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Tuesday.
i HATE PMS-ing.








But.. contradictory to what people say.. 
im happier when i pms. i get high for no apparent reason.
unless that feeling shows up in your gut.
like being stabbed a billion times.




Wouldn't have changed anything for the world love.
Our time came.. & left. & here i stand after almost 3 years. =)
but we loved.
& we adored. x3



Outing tomorrow!!~xD
SEXcited. ;P
wee!!~
*smiles



you know.. it's easier to enjoy life.
When you don't see the person you love
give you looks, ignore or walk out on you.
& you're genuinely happy.
at least till next time.
hha. this is completely random & doesn't relate to my life. ;P




LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:02 PM



Jan 24, 2011:Abstinence.


♥LaLa Land™


Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*24o111* .




Day2.
Nine things about yourself.
 Realisation. Most of which is fear.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:39 PM



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♥LaLa Land™
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Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*24o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Monday.
i've never been so bubbled up on a MondayMorning.







' Freely '







Perpisahan by AshidyRidwan.
i loved this song since the 1st time i heard it.
but i kept forgetting to search for it. hhahaaaa~
Zai reminded me of a lot of songs ytd in the bus home.

t'was a hot day.. =/
but i enjoyed skating & McD. x3
We go DwnTwnEast too often. hahaha~
Cheezels, marshmallows, takleh-make-it ghost stories. xD


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Me & Zai semalam bangun, siap then gy sekolah mama.
Sempat makan maggie, build a neighbourhood..
Padahal ada orang tuu ngahh tunggu. LoL!
Mama belanja us IceCream. xP



LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:31 AM



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Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*23o111* .




Day1.
1o things you want to say to 1o different people right now.
No names.





LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:38 AM



Jan 23, 2011:im not scared anymore. just remorseful..




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hehehe.



Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*23o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Sunday.
This | Means | War





Was waiting for someone to pull off a stunt like that.
Shit. Gotta get ready. It's almost noon!
So bL Jr. Shyazanna will be filming at RP today at 6pm.
Maybe me & the gang will go see her.

i got used to shit.
Coz shit happens to the most deserving fools.
you do whatever you want to be happy.
oh congratulations. *peace~

& please..
kalau awak tak buat apape..
then it's probably not you.
so jangan terasa. tolong.



LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:33 AM



Jan 22, 2011:


♥LaLa Land™
pandai awak.



Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*22o111* .




JabberwockyJanuary.
Saturday.
=']






my day started a little off.
but now im BACK. \m/
high high high high high~ xDD
Sayang korang.. sentiasa kechoh.. sentiase gler.

Congrats to KakMirah for winning 2nd runner up. \m/
Saw Shafeeq T. Hafeez Hussein a.k.a. Turtle nye mummy Ann Hussein.
LoL. Really just looks like him.
tired dancing & screaming & jumping & shittz.

ohh.. and one of the singers was a bass player.
i see hope for someone..
moga awak mencapai cita-cita awak.
dan moga awak sihat sentiasa untuk bila-bila.
 
okayy. my throat really hurts right now.
bedok~ bedok bedok bedok~
tomorrow~ \m/
kechohh~


keluarga Ain ada terlalu banyak harapan atas Ain.
Tell me who hates being called "pandai".
Everytime i hear it, it's like an insult.
Semua orang..
Biar mama, biar ayah, biar abang pun..
They know it. They admitted it.

Segala harapan yang ada pada dia orang jatuh kepada Ain.
Maybe that's why setiap kali Ain tersilap, i feel mortified.
Segala tanggung jawab yang Ain tak dapat menghasilkan..
Segala puji yang Ain menginginkan tapi tak terungkap.

Kini Ain dah tak kuasa.

Mungkin kerana itu..
Hidup Ain tak tenteram.
Kotak fikrah yang sentiasa berjalan.
Suara minda Ain yang terulang-ulang.
Kebolehan Ain yang tidak pernah mencukupi.

Dan pada awak.. saya terima.
Segala keputusan dijatuhkan pada Ain.
Sesungguhnya awak memahami bahawa Ain bukannya apa..
You deserve better & i mean it.

Perangai Ain cam gini..
Truth be told even I'm disgusted with myself.
JIJIK.
apa tak lagi awak.. kan?

tak akan lagi Ain mengharapkan.
Salam.

p.s. funny how you weren't what i was gonna type for.
but my trail of thought ended witcha anyway.



LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:57 PM



Jan 21, 2011:



♥LaLa Land™
Literally.


Dear diary,

JabberwockyJanuary.
*sigh*
im sorry i can't be perfect.
| im scared to lose you.. so i stayed away. |
but im afraid i already have..
 haven't i ?
even though i wanted to give me a chance.
& you hate me now.
So wanna read the nightmare i had yesterday..?




LiLMiss[V]exatious

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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:02 PM



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