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Apr 29, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
& yet today i have nothing to say.

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*29o411* .

No funfunfunfunfunfunfunfun.
Daryl Ang, shall die soon.

Head-butt. -.-

Hahh! ARSE. Suddenly come near me just to hit me in the head.
...With his. ................ Bloody pain, fcuk! hahahahaha~
-bie & the class as witnesses-
Anyway.. Happy birthday b. Yeahh..

May you be blessed with smiles with whoever, wherever, whenever.

_|_ the next person who fusses about #Le'RoyaleWedding.
Okay homeworkk. Mindboggling-ly tired so imma napzz.
Nothing to type.
Nothing to type.

& harhar to my classmates who went "Ehh Vee!"
It's your boorffdayy today! Happy birthday!!!
Did it on purpose right? -.- so funny. Hahh.
Nothing to type....................................


p.s. Why do people say my blog posts are too short?
I feel like I type too much ehh?



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:14 PM


 ♥LaLa Land™
Play musical chairs with me.

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*28o411* .

Fucking hate politics. & girls with one too many words.
& why do people auto-assume class politics?

No. Classmates still SUPER AWESOME.
Honestly. Like HONEST honest.
Shall go outing with them soon.
& to FiqahZ. & FatinF. :

Seriously NO. You will NOT get me to drink avocado #period.

Super tired today too........
Yet to finish my makeup drawing hw.
Was super into the video shoot when things started happening.
Mood spoiled like a broken old toy that a lil' girl dropped.

But i'm different now. Bucked up a lot.Winds of change.
So dinner with whatever's left of the Vietnam wannabezz wasn't bad.
Haha~ Ice cream cools me down i guess.. I can handle this.
Finished dinner @ bout 1115hrs? More or less.

Went home via mrt with Dillon & Khloe!
Saw 11:11. Prayed to God to calm my mind.
Yeah.. technically not a wish but i think it works better.
Though we've changed, a lot of us are doing our best. 'Least that's somethin'.

Said to Khloe:

"Sometimes i have problems but it don't mean i need to share."
"Sometimes all i need is to go forth & get it solved
or push it aside for the moment."

Sharing a.k.a. "complaining/bitching" won't make one feel any better.
Confrontation is key. Fears, tears.. Confront them.

& i hate how i treat people who care when i'm moody.
Not that i treat them like shit but still.. Nothing good will come out of it.
Should start treating them the way they deserve to be.
Will do my best. Also, we'll make it through this. All of us..

Life is prior. It sucks but we're still going at it. Irony.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:47 AM

Apr 28, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
Ohh my.

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*27o411* .

Technically Thursday.

So alone in the cyber worlddd.
I think i shall apologise to the people who msn-ed/tweeted me.
99% of the time didn't know what was going on.
Feels like FOP/Run350 all over again.

Zombie mode.

RT @aFriend : i looked like a drugged hippie just now.
Awesome~ -.-

So i think i'm almost flooded to the brim.
Already pushed to the edge of the cliff.
& let me tell you this, if you FCUK ME UP..
I'll show you what's FCUKed up.

I now have the motivation & ABILITY to push towards my goal.
I'll show you what I can do. & when I say it, I'll get it done.
No excuses. No hold backs. Stand in my way?
Let's see who'll be the last man standing.

Effing tired. I've been giving my all in the things i do these days.
Work hard. Play hard. Laugh hard. Sincerity?
No. Don't even- Let's see guys..
Let's see how long Vee can take this shit without breaking.

On a brighter note? Karthik owes me a treat to Starbucks coz im SMART. ;D
Time check o421hrs. Class starts in 7hrs+ & i have to be at Agora by 4.
Something about the principal being satisfied with our work.
Also the video making after school at 6 with the VietnamWannabezz.

 RT @reapcord:
@LiLMissVee93 oh come on, at least you got your boyfriend. ahahaha
God knows where people get their info these days..
Seriously? Hahaha~ No last time i checked i didn't have one. -.-



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 4:32 AM

Apr 26, 2011:Social dog. Society's joke.

 ♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Tues-dayy*26o411* .

"The weight of the things that remain unspoken".
Or so the song goes huh..?

I don't like my occasional EQ system crashes..
Harhar. I'm awesome this way. I shall remain awesome. I can. I can.

& get well soon DarDar.

When you feel like you're losing so many people at one go.
Not because they left you but because..
"You accept that they've got things to do..
but sometimes in the end there's nothing left for you."

& that fcuked up faci that fcuking gave me my 1st fcuking C.
Fcuk you. Ive put in a lot of effort. Rose among thorns?
No. _|_
& fcuk this.

Have to stay up to finish my homework for drawing. 
& cutting out the Replug logo. No sleep today. T_____T
Something to look forward though..
Replug Tee & Fitri's coming through his promise to buy me a drink.

I shall refrain from complaining too much on my blog.
Be the RandomAwesome person i need to be.
Mix&Mingle. MalignantMentality.
Mould myself to what you guys want. Fit in everywhere.
But is it really fitting in?

p.s. RT @ohmyjeyda:
When people walk away or give up on you, let them go..
& it doesn't mean they are bad people, it just means their part in your story is over.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:07 PM

Apr 25, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*25o411* .

Still dunno what shall be the subject of my Principle of Emphasis..
Okay stoppit ehk Vee. Hahahahahahahaha. Hahh.

Originally wanted to pen/ink/type my thoughts down.
Reminded how insignificant they really are therefore i shall not..

So we were required to take 20 pictures of designs containing
the princips of emphasis in class today. *Tag team to Bully Karthik xP
Other than that.. DarDar no mood today. =(( Smile please.
And bLs Shyazanna Baby Jr. came down Rp!~

& omg FACI!! haha~ So dirty. Started the lesson with Lingerie story.
Always notices the "olo".
Ended the lesson with stories from the underground. *eyebrow up2
& the story about Rp students murdered/commited suicide.
Not as bad as i made him out to be.
He's awesome though.

So much for BFFz ehh Fit!! hahaha~
Pon sch. Never JIO!! DD=



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:58 PM

Apr 24, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
Trying to..

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*24o411* .

Trying to sum up today in the shortest way possible.
Spent the day with SharBear, Fadhli, Fadzil shortcake & ?friend.

Bumped into my current classmate ?Khatib Karthik.
LoLL. Now i'm SURE i didn't add him on fb yet.
Did all the weirds stuffz from morning till night.

Though i still can't adapt to this kind of fluctuating weather.
Still feel the pain from my swollen throat.
Kept coughing and head high.
Dehydrated from the _|_ heat.

Got to play pool/snooker with the guys.
Escape theme park was okay..
Not as fun as previous years though.. Lines too long.
& the Jurong kids who came down lateeee~ -.-

It's that time of the year again..
A couple more months till..
He's already starting to fill my head.
His features are getting less vivid it's painful.
Not like he can come  back.
i guess that's why..
Because i'm so hung up on the past i just don't look forward to the present.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:14 PM

Apr 23, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
Eheehee so cute!!~

Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*23o411* .

Heehee. Woke up at o8o6hrs when im supposed
to meet Yaya at o845hrs. Luckily i could get ready in time.

So here's how the audition went..
Haha! So crazy-nervous early in the morning..

Cabbed down to BktBatokCrescent,WCEGA plaza.
Got a lil' lost heading up to Screenbox.
It was a cool place.
Positioned somewhere in a huge ?carpark was an office.

ScreenTest included:-

#1 Memorizing & acting out of script.
Monyet dan Kancil. LoLL!
#2 Reading out script in "bahasa baku"
Hahaha! Yaya & her Indonesian Accent.
#3 Impromptu script.
Ohh.Emm.Gee. Had to "fight" over Akid. T________T
But overall it was a good experience. The last- or 2nd last but good.

Never doing that again.
They said they'll call us down for shooting.
Told yaya i'm SERIOUSLY so not doing this again. -.-
She persuaded me to do at least one more if any.

Either way.. Acting?
Not my passion. 

After that we cabbed to Jp for a MacDonald's breakfast.
After walking around.. Headed over to Lot1!
Where we met a naturally pretty sales girl promoting her skin products.
Super HAWT.
And also bumped into Fluffy and his mum! xD

p.s. 1938hrs & i'm getting ready to buy stationeries with mummy.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:30 PM

Apr 22, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
A couple of years ago........
things happened.

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*22o411* .

RT @LiLMissVee93
Just because i don't "love" you doesn't mean you're not important to me.

A couple of years down the road.........
Where we are now.
You might not know who i was before..
At some point in our lives we were strangers..

But you can try to understand me now. & why i do the things i do.

Yayy! DowntownEast on the 24th!!~
Amusement park here we come~
Wanna do the drift on go-kartz.
Don't feel like going W3 this year thoughh......

ADDICTED to sweets
when you can't help but rummage the house for 'em
even when you KNOW there isn't any.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:40 PM

Apr 21, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
Adviced to everyone but me.

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*21o411* .

RT @FeetreeLee: Since i know nobody in class @LiLMissVee93 shall be
my bff coz she is the first in the class to follow me in twitter hahahaha.


Nothing much today.. but this.

If i truly belong in his arms, let God heal me.
Should these lips be meant to touch..
then the mind is but to set the heart free.
Could this feather ever land on Earth's heavens without shackled ends?

Dear Lord, to bestow permission unto.. is this beautiful Love that bends.
When the time comes..
If the time comes..
Oh blissful Serendipity.

And to be carried forth is..
with honesty & entertwined our fingers laced 
Till death do us part still together in Heaven's embrace.
-Yay! Happy ending. zzz~ -

RT @deefarhana: RT @TiaraAleena:
If you consider giving up on someone. You probably already have.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 6:12 PM


 ♥LaLa Land™
Nothing happened.

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*2oo411* .

Nothing will.
Just too much thinking.

A lot of games.
A lot of humour.
Someone i'm tired of trying to make, understand.
He's not completely wrongg. BUT i'm tired.
On a brighter notee~
The AWESOME us man! xD
Had a fab time. Seriously. Loads'a hugs goin' around.

I mindfcuked myself with photoshop again.
Revisiting "MediaDuhhLand".
*sighh.. Like suicide.

Final piece. -.-

& hanging out with the STAzz are always highlights to my day!
Replug meeting before meeting Vir to go home.
Tch. Didn't get to meet Adam. hha.
o915 class tomorrow.

Ohh yeahh!!~ Forgot to say.
i still LOVEEEE my class.
Seriously. Daryl!!~ Happy birthday babe. Yay for hugz!!!
Pao, Happy belated. Wanna sarbo you guyzz; tch. =((



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:06 AM

Apr 19, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
i like my new class. ;D

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*19o411* .

Of course it's only the 2nd day of classes,
1st day of me & the class.

Love my group.
I can see all of us putting in effort & no one's slacking.
We have our own ideas but no one fought & worked it through.
Awesome people. Awesome awesome.
Let's see if we can keep this up eyhh?

Nothing to do on a Tuesday. haha~
Bumped into some STA SLzz in the bus otw sch.
More STA SLzz in my class. =D
Met a lot of cool people before meeting Vir for lunch.

Bought lunch @Lot1.
Had a looooooonggg talk.
LoL! DarDar met mama. =/
Very random moment major.

Anyway~ Any ideas for Mothers' Day this year?
Falls on the 8th of May on a Sunday.
I'm running out of ideas.
No more flowers & teddy bearzz.. -.-
What else can i dooooooo??



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 8:18 PM

Apr 18, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*18o411* .

Honestly friggin' sick. Can't even stand up straight let alone walk.
Like a friggin' ghost floating around the house alone.

& so starts another semester without me.
Class starts at 1230hrs.
I wanna draww~

Knew i was falling sick during that RUN350.
I felt completely fine when i left the house.
But then my body started to ache like hell during duties.
Couldn't even stay awake & thought the ache was due to FOP after-effects.

Of course it couldn't be since FOP wasn't as strenuous.
Besides.. i felt fine after FOP.
Like what mama said.
Guess my body can't take morning dew.
A calling for disaster..

Good luck guys. DD'=
Hope you have fun on the 1st day of sch.......
Bloody hell lahh!!~ asdfghjk;'
Will only be visiting the docs tonight.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:19 AM

Apr 16, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*16o411* .

Wokayy so here's today's plan.
Be a swine. So fine. Eat & Sleep.

Rest my energy, Facebook 24/7.
Add & receive friend request from my fellow SLzz & kids.
Live a lil', laugh a lot, figure a bit of myself out..
& meet yaya at Cck Mrt at 223ohrs.

Gotta be in town by midnight.
The Marathon starts at o3oohrs.
We'll try to stay high for the rest of the night.
Awesome or what sia? All of us. Like drunk people.

are SO
Gonna have fun. xD
What are you doing Vee?
Self-fulfilling prophecy at work.

i hope we'll remember this.
All of us. Each & everyone.
About the people we met, memories we made, fun we had..
& the feelings we gave each other. Warmth with a tinge of sarcasm.
God bless us.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 8:09 PM


 ♥LaLa Land™
So tiredd~

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*15o411* .

A friday post on a saturday afternoon..
Kayy~ i've never been so tired in all my life.

Body aching like fcuk. Aftermath to the FOP.
I'm the kind of girl who's always "in the moment".
i won't realise im tired/hungry/sick if i have anything to do.
After that is a different story. Jialat ahh. Hahaha!

Didn't write this on FB because i think honest thoughts are better said here.
Where all my posts are set permanent & easily referred to.
1. i LOVE my SLzz!~ All of them were AWESOME ttm.
i can cry right now~ ;P But seriously.. Love you guys.
2. Grp 24 was filled with a buncha sweet SYIOK people.
 Although sometimes our grp got too big or too small.

Also the people in the other group.
Don't know what number. =/
More awesome people~ Sorry i keep shuffling groups. =(
In which if the event was not lived by me to the fullest, i apologise.

But then again there isn't much to apologise for~
When my voice is gone & my body is aching head to toe.
i DEFINITELY didn't hold back this time. Screaming my head off.
Jumping around everywhere~ Hp fly out of pocket. Paisehh like hell.

Kayy i sound so gayy right now otp with yaya.
No sleep again tonight. Helping out with the bike event thin
3am-11am -.-



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:05 PM

Apr 14, 2011:

 ♥LaLa Land™
Wee~ x3

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*14o411* .

The days just get better & better.
The freshies are getting more Rara!!~ Yayy~

Eventually getting hyped up & with my group number increasing.
Aahh!! My group number is increasing!!~

I've done so many stupid & embarassing *but fun~ things. -.-
More running around here & there & jumping up & down~
We're goin' around here & there like goin' around town!
Okay lame. SHUT UP.

Anywayzz~ After FOP i went with the other STA SLs for Dinner.
Kept watching the trailers. Nothing better to do. LoL.
Met MORE new AWESOME people! hha~
After which, we went to the arcade.

b playing basketball! Not bad ahh~
Then there was me & Farah. Went for a lil' walk. xD
& now we're back in RP. I'm fresh after a warm bath.
& everyone is here~

Kayy.. need to sleep. Frustrated with Facebook.
& someone's sound asleep. 



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:55 PM

♫|Nostalgia| |Melancholy|♪