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Aug 31, 2010:gotta stop being so random it's sad. LoL

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *31o81o* .


my fetish for kids. kyaa!!~
ok fcuk that was lame.

but i seriously ADORE children.
one of the reasons why it felt like i was a daycare
everytime my neighbourhood kids decided to "assemble".
been a while since i saw them.. busy3.
AKLTG.. After8.. my countless nieces, nephews & cousins..
oohhlala~ =_=||

how can they get way with being so repulsively CUTE?
okay maybe not repulsive.

been watching HelloBaby.
would love to see my guys try to raise one.
EPIC i'm sure.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:42 PM

:Negeri Sembilan's monarchy.

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *31o81o* .


been doing some studying..
Not the one i was appointed duty off though.. [UT3 hehehe]

but instead.. about Malaysia's royal rights.
admiration that i have over the rich culture & traditions
that was preserved for hundreds of years.
Their monarchy so very different from the other countries.
Negeri Sembilan's monarchy to be precise.

The humble modesty of the royalty
is something all their loyal subjects would appreciate.
What i admire most is their spectrum of royal candidates & the protocols.

The appointed roles of those who served the king were mostly hereditary. For example, those who were born to keep their rich traditions alive. Passed down from generations to generations. This was how the traditions were kept till now. Of course there were some minor changes made to keep up with the modern times. But the rich culture was so very alive.

& the heir, to the throne..
is not chosen by direct decendants but by a spectrum of possible bloodlines.
meaning the uncles, the brothers, the cousins, the nephews.
& the one given the right to choose was not that of a higher power.

Unlike the hereditary monarchs of the other royal Malay states, the ruler of Negeri Sembilan is known as Yang di-Pertuan Besar instead of Sultan.
The election of the Ruler is also unique whereby he is selected by the council of Undangs who lead the four biggest districts of Sungai Ujong, Jelebu, Johol, and Rembau,
making it one of the more democratic monarchies.

In other words, their ruler is chosen in a way of which
their people of all levels of society will accept.

Also, the current di-Pertuan Besar was raised in a normal environment.
He did not live as royalty & made friends like all the other children.
This allows him to see in the eyes of his people.
So when the role was handed down to him..
He did nothing less but accept it with the wisdom & responsibility of his people.

Here's to hoping the traditions will continue to last..
& the democracy never ending.
To unspoiled royalty & uncorrupted leaders.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:23 PM

:Wake up.

♥LaLa Land™ 

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *3oo81o* .


holla beetchez!
do yourself a favor & stop hating.
just the same as those idiots who chop each other off.
heartless & cold.
killing off your own species.
soon your people will be extinct.
if your life is worth living.. you'd stop bitching.

i'm sorry for being vulgar.
i feel like it is a necessity for today.
hope for the best it'll be the last time.
just an advice. take it or leave it.
don't leave anyone with reasons to hate you.

there's only one life.
don't waste it being horridly grotesque & repulsive.

as will i..
in doing my best to follow suit.
you thought i won't take my own advice?
i've got a fairly working brain.


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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 2:13 AM

Aug 30, 2010:Serendipity..

♥LaLa Land™ 
yay! finally back West.
it's really fun being uptown.
but imma downtown gurl.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy *29o81o* .


haha! ok.. here's how it went down.
the baking? weird experience. HAHA!
Went out in the morn to buy groceries.
REALLY should've dried my hair before going down.
effing cold atmosphere.
had LOADS of fun though. messy. xP

broke fast at Geylang.
some places..
now i'm home.
amazing how i got away with a lotta things.. =/
like reaching cuzzie's place at about 1am+.
keeping them awake.
goin' out of the house without a proper "yes".

just this once.. just for now..

There comes a point when it's not that you don't care anymore, you just can't.
p.s. Don't you dare test me.
erase my insignificance.
sick & tired of doing everything wrong.
best you don't read anything.


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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:21 AM

Aug 29, 2010:Hehehehehehe. xP

♥LaLa Land™ 
ahaha! am at Tampines.
here's my gurls at YOG closing.♥

Dear diary,, Sat-dayy *28o81o* .


technically it's Sunday alr. but the day is far from over.
Went shopping ytd. HariRaya. =/
Things that happened before that? i shan't say.
So very vexing.
bought a LOT of stuff. haha.

♥purple wristband.

After that went out to accompany someone
"shop" [yeah. shopping again.] for awhile.
LoL. More like survey.
My attempt at escape? EPIC FAIL.
sorreh about the dramatic exit. =(
must go out again soon. xD

so what have we learnt so far..?
NEVER mess with panda.

heehee~ anyway now am at cuzzy's place.. BAKING. =X

so i wonder what'll it come down to today..
p.s. | ManUtd vs WestHam, the game was dull ytd. |



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:09 PM

Aug 28, 2010:Oiuve.

♥LaLa Land™ 
oh god. even the fireworks won't help me smile now.

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy *27o81o* .


ugh.. i was having a fairly lovely night when..
i saw some fucked up video.
Watch this. Be pissed. Kill that bitch.
i SWEAR there's just something wrong with her freakin' brain.
did you see how she looked like as if she fucking accomplished something?
someone please drag "it" to hell.

sorry i keep stumbling upon these videos..
curiousity gets the best of me.
for those of you who couldn't stomach that video either..
here's something SWEET to wash off the fucked up taste.

& note to self:
|reminders for panda|
he needs to get a..
[x]new pair of slippers
[x]new jeans &
[x]a new skateboard.
even i can't remember so haha.

oh my word i need to unsee that video..
please help me forget that sick & wrong footage.
i don't want nightmares..

hope tomorrow's trip would be remedy not salt.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:32 AM

Aug 27, 2010:Another great rendezvous. =)

♥LaLa Land™ 
sooo.. hungry.

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *26o81o* .

currently at RafflesPlace.
bored.. hungry..
Not even fasting but i can't eat..
BrunoMars playing. =)

yay! & i finally get the phone callz.. =)
i feel like exploring the world today..
have some fun.. find some crazy cats..
exchange phone numbers..
live life crazy.

ok back!~
WestGrandBoulevard & GreatSpyExperiment tonight.
super fab night. ♥
Had to stick around for Class 'A' Love Affair
before heading back..
but the crazy cats wanna head home. =(

When i picked up my bags..
It came on. =P
3 hot regulars on my right. ;P

& i feel so like a child!
can't believe i still get excited over fireworks..
smiled too wide my cheeks hurt.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:57 AM

Aug 25, 2010:Writing songs for this to disappear.

♥LaLa Land™ 
whatever.. you know..?
sometimes you just have to take the leap
& build your wings on the way down..

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy *25o81o* .

a lotta music exploration lately.
can't stop myself from looking up all the song titles
that popped up.

& i saw a video about a cat whose front legs
got chopped off for stealing a freakin' fish.
which bastard has the right to do that?
RT @hotFEESH: We should build a secret prison for people who torture animals.
followed by some disturbing ideas from him & mamad..
yeah.. i don't think i should type it here.
seriously who the hell has the heart to do that?

wrote a new song.
seriously been a while since the last one..
hmm.. =/



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:38 PM

Aug 24, 2010:i'm gettin' there..

♥LaLa Land™ 
who i really am.

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy *23o81o* .

figuring myself out.
doing a lot of thinking lately..

i swear i'm still unsure who that is..
but i'm gettin' there..
i mean the main substances that make up my life don't change right?
i just feel like eversince polyLife i've changed quite a bit.
as in drastically on my views of life.
it's not the philosophical angle.. it's just the teenage angle.
you know?

like figuring you out..
that lead me into the direction of figuring myself out.
i mean i'm a teenager.
with moodswings & memories & people i've met.

i've done crazy wild things i'm not proud of but they were fun.
& i've seen places i'll never be able to forget.
places people rarely maybe almost never see.
met faces lost paces..
been around.. got around..

& i'm completely okay with everything i've been through..
it makes a part of me.

i'm the girl who
s it when my hair still smells like shampoo at the end of the day.
the girl who might not care at all what people say.
but what people say might end up being the world to her.
unsure if she's a girly gurl or a tomboy

because in my life.. i'm so stuck with both extremes
that it surprises me how unbalanced i still am.
i have a lot of things that makes me.
but a lot of things that takes me.
& if i'm complicated..

then what does that make you..?
talking to you i really wonder..
what is it you have in your mind?
just like the infinite things i have in mine.
in a way we're too much alike.
& i think this means trouble.

p.s. to the guys..
THANKS. thank you. SO MUCH.
for raping my laptop.

Danial your drawing ytd was totally awesome. *rolls eyes*
thank you for polluting my sketchbook.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 6:24 PM

Aug 23, 2010:Starstruck anyone?

♥LaLa Land™ 
it's a beautiful dawn..

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy *23o81o* .

too much fairytales? i just want to be happy.

i didn't blog ytd.. again.. =/
it's a beautiful feeling..
welcoming the dawn so warmly it's been a while..
i just feel like i'm so okay & together..
like nothing could go wrong for quite a while..
i'm so glad i feel like crying right now..
maybe i am but so what?
it's a good cry.

ahahaha!!~ cute!

i don't know..
maybe i've not been myself for a while..
maybe i didn't know what myself was for a while..

i kind of lost my personality..
what i thought was everything to me..
i just got demoralised from doing. like it was a chore.
words.. atmosphere.. teenagers..
they can do a lot to a gurl..
they can hurt & scar & not realise what they've done.

but it feels so much better..
it might be closure..
though it doesn't feel at all like it.
know what it feels like..?

an opening..?
a new beginning..?
♥welcoming the dawn of the new..


♥Let's have a LateNights/EarlyMornings Star gazing.
Anyone up for it?
let's have a lovely night..
snacks.. sweets.. stars..
travel around the milkyway?
conquer the galaxies with traces of us..
it's going to be fun. =)


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SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:42 AM

Aug 21, 2010:Lights&cameras.. Nights&fireworks..

♥LaLa Land™ 
happy birthday panda..
glad i could see you..it's been awhile..
you look cute when you smile.
keep smiling.
DoubleChoc soon. =)
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy *2o-21o81o* .


i didn't blog ytd.. =/
hmm.. got home at 1am.
the photoshoot at ClarkeQuay went well. x3
didn't really like the hairstyle they gave me.
too "proper" & neat.
so i "modified" it.

pulled out some strands here&there
& made it messy. xP
after photoshoot decided to stop by baybeats.

otw to the Esplanade crossing the overhead bridge..
the fireworks decorated my night.
knowing we were watching the same one made me happy..
we were never that far away from each other..
baybeats was cool.
Loved the music..
bumped into a couple of people.
sad Nana went to cityhall. =(
had a very nice night though..
saw panda. x3

yay~ pizzas & ChocoLattes for break-fast.
was invited to NoiseSg but i didn't go.
Not even baybeats today.
wanted to head down for guitarsession but that was cancelled.
no fun without music
& my earpiece was cancelled.
not that i expected to get it today.. =_=zzz

& these days i've been having this thought in my mind..
"i don't care.. i really don't care"
replaying over & over & over again.
it's annoying that it won't stop
& i know it's clearly all just lies..



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 6:39 PM

♫|Nostalgia| |Melancholy|♪