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May 31, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
Another beautiful week.

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*3oo511* .

3 more days till holidays.. ='((
Definitely MUST have class outing.

In fact,We might have a drawing outing..
Coz we have an assignment for drawing class. 
To go somewhere & draw some place.
Might be going together. xD.

Anywayy~ We had Media production tools & techniques todayy.
Yayy~ So fun! Didn't bring my laptop. Feel so light~
& we spent our day at the studio.
The dude there complaining about milo spilt. 

"We didn't do that~
Was what i said. Nyahaha~ Nenie laughed.
She "trusted our group to use the room at studio lvl 2.
Cool room. Dark & eerie~ Wooohh~ ;P

Had fun scaring my team mates!!~
Hao Yi was like.. "Ehh? That door is ajar~
Daryl went "Where where where???
I was like "The one near where Adrian's sitting. ;)
Ade ~> O.o|| *runs toward us. hahahahaha!!
Us, recording ghost scenes for 5 mins in the dark.
Nenie came in & asked "Have you guys heard the story about this rm? *smirks



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:42 PM

May 30, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
I know~ Continuously late posts.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*29o511* .

Weekends actually.
Well. It's monday already..
But here's what i did ytd & the day before.

Saturday morningg~ Headed to polyclinic for the check up.
Faster then usual. =/ Guess i tool the express lane. Haha~
After getting the referral letter, me & mama headed to Westmall.
Mama keeps making me reminisce about "When you were young..

Yeahh.. Walking to the swimming pool in our swimming costume~
Coz it's super duper near. We had a lot of fun there really.
Goin' to IMM on bike. Coz it's close & we can.
Living the warm life i now find.. blurry. 

At night, went to Fad's house untuk kenduri arwah~
Kak Radd & Rahman were there!~ xP So was Willem. Of course. 
Met some cool people~ Like Salihaaa~ Stayed till about 1am.
Papa(Fad's dad) sent us home by lorry. Reached home at 2.

So Sunday!!~ =) Goshh. Wrong time to be in pain.
Couldn't sit still in the theatre. Movie Marathon with GS.
We got lost in Orchard a bit. hhaha! Instead of Paul & Water for elephants..
We watched DillonDog & Priest.

Not bad but I wanted to watch PAULL~ DD'=

Anywayy~ Sorrehh GS. =/
Day could've been longer if not for that.
& thanks.. good lookin' out.
Hahaha.. go out again some time. =)



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:42 PM

May 28, 2011:Momentum 2o'11!!

♥LaLa Land™
*gasp! Oh mon dieu~

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*27o511* .

Momentum almost brought me to tears.
Literally breath-takingly Jaw dropping. No exaggerations.

Black listed the schools with awesome choreography & a great story told.
Schools like TemasekJC, NUS, Yishun Primary~
Also our very own RP dance groups.
ModernDance, HipHop, Latin, MalayCultural.

pictures STOLEN from Wi~nantooo~:

And on thursday.. we had our last dinner with UncleBeaver!!~
Sean is SO unreasonable sometimes. HAHAHA.
Why do you keep pickin' on Jace?? O.o
& i didn't hug some people goodbye.. ='((

So funny lahh you people. =)
hmm.. Wonder if Winanto uploaded the piczz~ =/



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:00 AM

May 26, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,,

Time now: o846hrs
I've reached school quite a while ago.

My class starts 1t o915 & I'm so early.
& my thoughts are going a million miles per second.
This morning mama ironed my shirt for me & asked me if i wanted to be sent..
I did everything in my power to not let that chance slip.

This morning showed how much of a lie it is to say..
I hate my brother.
On the contrary.. i love him a lot. I just hate how bad a brother he is.
1st day of NS. Army. He had his buzz cut already.

I thought a lot to myself in the car. A LOT.
How my father isn't that bad a man we used to think he was.
That my brother used to be someone who stood up for me. Stayed by my side.
That we really just hit a messed up crossroad & all we needed..
Was to find the right junctions to meet up again.

Nothing i say now.
might be able to make you people understand how i feel.
My family isn't perfect. But we haven't met our demise.

I can still feel the warmth. We shouldn't stop trying.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:21 AM


♥LaLa Land™
Ahh. -.-

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*25o511* .

Dowanna do work. Dowanna go Jb rodayy. zzz~
I dowanna do nothing but hang. But class has ended long ago.

2 minutes to 12. What shall i do.......?
Hmm.. Yayy Tomorrow Uncle JuJu's class!!~ hahaha~
Tch. 0915 class. E5 blk. Farkk.
& LoL at Adrian sleeping on the table like a mermaid.


Just completed my DTNM illustrator shyatt. zzz
Effing stressed. Glad it's over but i still have drawing to do.
Due by Friday's class & i don't even know which is the real hw.
Also, tomorrow i'll be meeting up with the VietnaWannazz!! xD

Spend afterschool with Elaine!!~
Small stuff keep raping my laptop. -.-
Also GS who calls her TallGirl. HAHA!!~
Met Ricky. Hahaha. Ricky = Grr~ ;P

Yeahh. & Lightning & Thunder woke me up.
 Gave me the heebie-jeebies. O.o||

& i.. think i've overstepped my boundaries somewhere.

People are watching my every move.
Need to take some time to let things sink first.
Neither naive nor gullible. Thing is, whether they know not doesn't matter.
Very well aware, should thou deny. DON'T underestimate.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:22 AM

May 25, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
mehh~ hahahaha~

Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*24o511* .

Well~ The previous blogpost was meant for ytd & this morn. =)
This time.. imma tell you how class & replug aud. II went.

Today's task was fun.. xP
Playing detectives. Ahaha~ We looked at some images..
& tried to assume what the character is like, using that as a basis.
The starting point of the overly dramatic story we're about to........

Hehehe~ I see someone is happy about the romantic storyline. -.-
Kechohh lahh you people. =)) #SinglishModeON
After class.. Me, Pao & Aqilah hung out a while~
Before eating lunch & bumping into Daryl & Myra.


Pao went for Chinese Orchestra.. I was left with an hour+.
Aqilah bumped into her friend & went home with 'em.
The rest of us went IT helpdesk to accompany Daryl.
After that Daryl went home & it was me & Myra at TRCC!~ =D

Finished my Rj before ReplugAuditionzzPt.II!!~
The kids were not bad~ Some awesome arrangements goin'.
Most importantly they had fun. Though we can see their nervous-ness.

But we had a fun night.
Went home with Fluffy, bumped into Roz, Eth & gang.
& the day ended like that. Weeeeee!!~
Next up? Replug CAMP 2o11 !!! 

Excited anyone? =D



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:22 AM

May 24, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*23o511* .

Vokayy~ Late Monday post on a Tuesday Mawniangg. xP
Nothing much to say...........................

Adrian smelled nice yesterday.
As much as i hate to admit. Not a good memory though.. =/
Fragrance~ i'm very well aware of people's scents
So does that makes me a dog or a cat?

i'm hungry. =(
& i'm letting the class get a whiff of my new perfume!
UrbanFlowers NewYork.

Hahaha~ LawLL.
im in HaoYi's group today AND yesterday. ;P
Haha. PanTao ahh.. there will never be a day that passes..
Without HaoYi's name being mentioned in our class. zzz.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:13 AM

May 22, 2011:I'm not perfect just like everyone else. Special.

♥LaLa Land™
Je suis vraiment désolé~

Dear diary,, S-dayy*22o511* .

I must admit I'm not a saint let alone an angel.
We are all sinners doing our best to work on ourselves.

It isn't as bad as it sounds.
Because no matter whom..
You HAVE sinned.
It's whether you submit to your actions and ask for forgiveness that matters.

I'm slowly trying to figure out who i am really.
This isn't about faith. It's about an unsolved identity crisis.
I'm not an EmoNemo. I'm not a byatchh bent on your destruction.
I don't think I'm the smartest girl in the word. Stupid maybe.
My decisions are reckless. My emotions unstable.

I am definitely NOT insecure anymore.
I may be paranoid at times..

But I'm honestly fine with myself.. =)
Although.. I truly2 think that i am psychopathic.
Not in a straight jacket kinda way.. Just.. Unstable. HAHA!
If I'm fine with that what rights do you have not to be?
I'm indecisive. Fickle minded. I don't find life easy.
I get carried away sometimes. Reckless.
My thoughts very much restless.

But then, what made you want to know me in the first place if not this. ;P

I won't blanket the people i care about with my problems anymore.
If God's my only QuantumSolace then alright.. please take care of me.
But i should tell you he's FAR from Quantum. On the contrary..
& i should say.. This isn't telling the world how much i love him.
& should you think so well.. alright then. =)
Need i remind you how much you..
don't need to visit my blog against your will?

God is.. like my shelter. When i'm paranoid.. God calmed my heart.
My family when blood runs thin. When I'm alone outside at 3 am cold.
When no one knew and no one cared. Not that I blame them.
In fact I know very well that we are all human. As much as we want to..
We can't always know everything that's going on. Be there everytime.
I'm not masochistic. Bent on torturing myself whining no one cares.

In fact quite the opposite. I'm so grateful to have people who love me.
They try hard. & it's not wrong or anything.. You tried. =)

It's just that God's naturally there. Don't need to try.

Do you even realise that someONE is always watching over?
One isn't even a digit to what he can do for you..
All you have to do is ask. Why didn't i ask?
We still have the chance.. Ever loving..



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 8:36 PM

May 21, 2011:


♥LaLa Land™
Bonjour chérie~

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*2oo511* .

A very late friday..
Or should i say early.. post?

8 minutes to 5am.

Butterflies flutter away~
Can't say i'm in eLLe.
When i don't know what's goin' on in my GawdDamn brain.
Let alone heart.

i know i've said this a lot.. but i didn't plan this.
In fact i hate this. Just leave me be.

Had a lovely day today~ xD
Drawing module. Therefore no laptop requirements.
As usual~ a nutty class. Only today..
We had a trip to Jb after class!

SO doing this more often. ;PP

Watched Pirates of the Caribbean 4.
It was.. okay i guesss. Funny! xDD
On the scale of 1-1o? Uhm.. 7~8?
The mermaid was so.. woah.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:19 AM

May 20, 2011:COPYRIGHTs of LMVee.

♥LaLa Land™
My final product of the day. ^^V

Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*19o511* .

The picture ^ above is to portray..
The Principle of Harmony in Emphasis.

Or was it emphasis in harmony..?

A gazillion reasons why..
i my class.
They say love is a strong word.. but i can't deny.

i AM a lil' screw loose. xP.
Less of emo.
Less of negativity.
Loads'a Love. Xoxo.

Cheers for 123o classes!!~ xDD

Hopefully the plans for heading to JB tomorrow holds through.
Yayy~ xDD
We~ we~ we~ we~
We so excited!!~



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:42 AM

May 19, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*18o511* .

A wednesday post on a Thursday morning.
Fungry-ly typing with fk-ing hunger.

I is hungry!

My dear.. What was that for? Haha~
But since we're on the topic, im contented with my life.
Just sayin'.
Teehee! -.-

Also.. to anyone who is discontent with me.......
Just so you know i don't have any official foes currently.
None that have stepped forward and shown themselves.
& none that i acknowledge.

No common clash guys. No offense. Sorrehh.
You can go fight with walls. ^^V
Like what Gerard said..
"I'm the one who buat bodoh jek.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:59 AM

May 17, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™

Dear diary,, Tues-dayy*17o511* .

Awwwwwhhh shyatt.

SCREW 8am classes.

Finding less & less things to say.
Well aren't you guys glad?



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:10 PM

May 16, 2011:


♥LaLa Land™
hi. ((O,____,O))

Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*16o511* .

ahh fcuk it. ='((

Got myself stressed getting the story done.
Tried to complete it otw school with Ulin but..
*sighh~ batt died, can't charge & dialogue session started.
sucks coz after that i just lost the will to'ally.

Saw HaoYi~ xDD
Walked to CWP with Fadd, Ro, Matin, his girl &....~
Nothing too interesting today but yeahh.. stressed.
Hopefully tonight's dusk session'll help.

Wheels hitting pavements~
The nights of our gentlemens..
We shall let the cool night air..
Dance with our hair. 



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:05 PM

May 15, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
Hi people.

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*15o511* .

Missed Me?
No? Kayy sorrehh.

i miss Dusk Sessionzzzzz...........

Ahh. Weekends blown awayy~
Away~ Away~
*SingsToAlarice's song

So goodnight moon~
& goodnight you..
When you're all that i think about.
All that i dream about.. How'd i ever breathe without..?

i yearn for.. something sweet.
Sugar Rush.
 Like when i talk to you.



SyidahAinVeeJr.; 8:21 PM

May 14, 2011:

♥LaLa Land™
Will stop with the "Me, me, me.

Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*13o511* .

Not much fuss about this as we get older.
Guess our feelings are gettin' worn out much too quickly.

You don't know me.
You don't know who i am.
& i'm tired of trying to say what's on my mind.
You should have known.
#Lyrics extracted. Beyonce's Listen.

"You~ enough for you?
Yeah well..

Class was such a dear~
All the fun because of you awesome kids.
Love you guys too much it's gettin' dangerous. ;D
Hha~ So i got HaoYi's no. just to piss Pao off. xP
You people are so cute! Making a fuss.
Predictable textbook answers.
Hahaha~ i know you're kidding Paoooo~

Starbucks after school!!~ xD
with Yaya, Lili, Ariff, Akid & his 2 "halal friends..
So naiseeeee~

p.s. i didn't tell you because i'm not sure.
Let's not fuss just yet...............
Not like i'll die officially tomorrow.




SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:03 AM

♫|Nostalgia| |Melancholy|♪