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Aug 15, 2011:


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♥LaLa Land™
Why do i keep calling back what-ifs?

Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*14o811* .


Azan inAugust. ♥
Sundayy.
Can't help it seriously.
Sem1 when i experienced the most depressing moments of life ever..


Feeling so fucking guilty i dragged my bestfriend down with me.
That kid i loved just watching me burn.
Long over.
Still thinking about what-ifs once in a while.







But i'm guessing we're all good. My ex-classmates.
Though i'm pretty sure they check in sometimes.
& i still annoy them at times too.................
But heyy.. Peace.


That lovely senior that used to mean the world to me.
The fun i felt just hangin' with him at times.
The crap we sometimes talk about.
The depth of the topics that drags the convo tone to become serious.


Still.. the wrinkles in his eyes when he smiles.
The hurt i can't hide without stoning when i feel like i should just fuck off.
That bloody dream i had a few months ago..
'was about him. Clearly.


We were having a load of fun..
When he suddenly turned to walk away. Leaving me with my friends.
Running like crazy trying to grab a hold of him.
Finally saw him.. reached for his hand..


Instead his arm caught mine.
My cheek on his shoulder.
Wide-eyed though dreaming..
I felt the warmth. Woke up feeling the longing driving me close to insane.


Though by then i already made my decisions.
That time i gave him that portrait before the trip to Vietnam.
The nice unexpected hug i got. Happy? Hurt?
Somewhere in between.


I can type this now because it isn't much of a secret anymore.
No more space for egos. Any trace of shame all goes to me.
Who gives a fuck anyway.. i'm just saying it's weird.............
How certain people used to mean the world to me.
 


Anywayy~~~~





Broke fast at CWP with Ro & Matin.
Family box? Seriously?? Where do you guys put it all?! O.o!!
After that had a nice walk. Finally got to play the huuuugeee swing.
Sembawang issit? Or Marsiling? Or Admiralty? Hahahaha~ i dunno. -.-








Saw a white rabbit there too! ^^
Mehh. Without people around that place looked surreal.
With.. it feels "Contained. Dormant. Normal. Muggle.
Whatever. Full moon tonight! Too bad i haven't got a HQ pic.

 











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