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Feb 17, 2012:The panda

♥LaLaLand™

Reading too much about stories on life & reflections.

Dear diary,,

Fabricated February. ♥

Friday.

So there was this friend.
A friend I could never really honestly call a friend.

Because lol. Dude seriously how can I ever call you a friend?

What is a friend.
We're everything but friends.
What were we?

We were awkward man.

Or we were comfortable. I can't make up my mind.

We were funny. It really didn't make sense now that I think back on it.

1st time, your smile, fireworks. Okay.

(& thanks for picking my clothes for me that day.)

Going out shopping after the night I told you shopping with you would be troublesome.

Probably. It was. It wasn't? Idk. Haha lol. Cotton on complaints. What'd we do after that?

Oh yes. Songs. SOTA? Your friends. Man Utd! hekk~ 3am? Do you still have the key chain?

I honestly get very.. confused when we hang out. Why? What reasons do I have to?

Your cousin's house? Why? That topic. Why?

What did we do after that? Double-decker bus. Your essay. Lasers.
Honestly what was I thinking? lolololololol. Double chocolate! I know the reason for that.

Promise seen through~ ^^ Got lost. Long bus ride. Yishun~ What the hell was that man.

That same day running around random places.

Bukit batok? Your friends. Ramli burger. lololol. It's getting more random.

Since when do "real men" have to eat beef instead of chicken?

Your graduation present. My awesome masterpiece. To be honest I think I draw better now.

1st hug. Lololol. Thank you. I was sad that day. Then happy. Then hurt. Hekk.

You probably didn't know then. The portrait's trying to say it's rightfully yours.

Because it's a drawing of you. & because I don't own you. Hahaha.

Mehhehh. That was a fun irony. & just so you know I knew you'd text me back fast.

Couldn't help being curious bout what it was so you opened it right after you got on the bus.

Just guessing. But I'm glad I made you smile. That was the only time you found me awesome.

Thanks babe. Haha! Wth man. Purple paper & red ribbons. Right?

Let's see.. what else, what else..?

Chalet. I'm sorry. I was rude. That was completely me. Hahaha~

But then it won't be me without mood swings.
Ah yeahh.. what ever happened to your invitation to help you with FYP?

Hahaha. We really are very random. I still don't get what's happening anywhere.

Playing around backstage was fun though.

There were lots of memories. I can't continue talking shit about everything right?

You're right. At times I just can't talk & look you in the eye.

Inwardly Clarke quay was funnehh. Honestly I thought I knew things about you.

I don't. I don't know anything.
What's the point of writing everything?
Nothing. I was just reminiscing. Hahaha. You.. always bring me to a state of utter confusion.
Kudos. Now that your period of reign has long past.. I can write all this without feeling stupid.

Because I am. I'm very stupid.
& I will be for a long time to come.
& things won't change. & I will continue to be a little crazy, a little random & a little mean.
& I will continue to wonder.. After I gave up on you, I had to get everything outta my chest.

& even though you know.
Why is it you.. who starts those bitter lame short insignificant one Q one word answer convos.
Why ever at all? I guess what I mean to say is.. I will think of you from time to time.
& sometimes wonder.. why do you even bother?

& when you actually search for me..
More so.. I wonder, to what do I owe this honour?

I'm being blatantly straightforward.

TalkingToStars. ♥

LiL♂Miss[V]exatious

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