Apr 19, 2012:The epilogue.
♥LaLaLand™
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *19o412*.
Chapter 18:
2020;
There she was.. her usual spot in the bus by the window.
Making her way from her dream home in the suburbs to the office in the city.
A peaceful morning. Bright and calming. Soft sunlight occasionally caressing her face.
Trees along the highway makes it all the more complete. Flickering sunlight into her eyes..
On and off.. on and off.
A morning just like any other; but unlike that of any other.
Earpiece on; a long bus ride.. music adorned her very soul. As she admired the world.
Has it always been this beautiful?
It's funny. Sometimes we're so caught up in the world & it's busy & workload & deadlines..
We forget other things. Things that have always been there.
Time is so precious.. but-
The bus stopped. She tugged on her sling & made her way down.
"I can't believe I'm wearing a long skirt.", she laughed at that thought.
*exhales*; not the kind of sigh.. but of relief of sorts.
"It's going to be a good day.. Insya'Allah."
Peeked at her watch; *gasp!* she started running to catch the next train. A wide smile on her face.
She was going to be late but none of the worries; more of the adrenaline. She loved a good run.
Most of the time, the world is shut out. Music creates a bubble around her. Defending her joy.
The world; an achromatic hue.. familiar yet distant from where she is. The crowds engulf her yet-
She was somehow.. alone; yet not alone. Because she always has Him beside her.
A warm assurance.. like wings embracing her heart. Cold silk on her face.
None was ever able to penetrate through her "morning bubble" save but few.
Not solitude.. no. It was solace. Far from quantum.
*nods*; "Okay.. let's run for it."
*bump!* "Oh God, I'm so sorry!" she said feeling a little guilty for not paying attention to the world.
She helped pick the man's files up.. & handed it to him. Only then did she..
See his face.
"Hey..", he said. "Hi.. =/ ", then she smiled.
"Haven't seen you around lately?"
"Yeah.. I've been wrapped up in stuff. Same old, same old. Hey I gtg I-"
"Your digits! Maybe we could have lunch sometime.. you know, as friends."
"..okay. Okay~ Hahaha~" & oh look at that.. she's definitely going to be late. Hahaha!
"Run for it!"; she did.
"Bye Ceeeeeee~".
Asshole. Hahahaha~ Whatever.
*doors closing* "Fishsticks!!"; she dashed through the closing subway doors.
"Nailed it! hehehehe~" Suddenly remembering her "superhero bestfriend" (pukes) N.
That time otw to school when she almost missed the LRT & he let his arm get crushed by the door.
"Idiot. =) That was funny.." she continued giggling to herself.
Unbeknownst to her; the pair of eyes in full staring mode.
O.o!! *turns* "Panda!! hahaha~ how are you?"
"The usual. Where're you heading to?"
"Work. Where else? Business has been awesome. And you?"
"Airport. You know how I hate travelling from one end to the other end everyday. A break."
"Of course. Lazy arse panda." & for the first time the train ride with him was a comfortable one.
"This is me. See you when you get back!"
"Yeah."; she wasn't running anymore. There's no way she'd be on time at this rate. *giggles*
Still wearing a smile. "The broken road huh? =) "
In just a morning.. she revisited the broken road; the memory lane. Heartbreak Avenue.
Only it didn't hurt that much anymore.. not yet serendipity. Just serenity.
"You know panda.. even if you were to get married and have kids.. I'd probably be either dying; dead or alone(highest probability) so the reason for everything that's happened was just me."
*flashback ends* "Should I not have said that..? =/" looking at the ground.
Brisk walking pace; steady breathing; STOP.
She found herself looking at two pairs of sports shoes a few feet away.
She lifts her head &- *wide-eyed*; "M.."
*Smiles*.. 'I wonder how you've been..'; she thought to herself.
Right hand floats.. & broke into a wave hello. 'This is oddly familiar', recalling 2011.
He smiled.. and waved a hesitant hello back.
Her heart felt more at ease. And they walked pass each other..
They walked on by.
She dashed up the stairs; down the slope by the corner of Grace Street.
(which looks oddly similar to the Rue Abel St. in France she visited a couple of years ago)
Peeked at her watch; *09:40* "10 mins late. Hahaha~ Make it 15."
She stopped by the bakery on 42 to buy herself a doggy bag of croissants & a cup of hot choc.
Runs up to the office to hand over somethings from her satchel; released the bike she left
by the front lobby yesterday & headed for workplace.
The office? Heavens no! *giggles*
It has only been opened for a couple of months.
Around 3 months after she got back from travelling the world.
*bicycle bells ringing*; she parked it by the side & took the satchel out of the basket.
Heeelloww baby~ she greeted the regular stray that has been her company since the opening.
"Meoww~" the cat pranced over & wrapped itself around her right leg.
Sorry Fluff~ "Me issu gots tozz gooo~ I'm already super late. D's gonna kill me."
& she opened the glass doors.. to a café.
"Morning.. =) "
I'm just kidding. She's the boss. So what if she's late?
Heads turned; smiles.. "Late again missy?! Woke up late for Fajr huh? You sleepy cat."
"Ehehehe~" feeling the embarrassment. Her employees; her friends; her family..
The gang broke into laughter.
She turned her can'ts into cans.. her dreams into plans.
God bless the broken road.
♥
"...Bear with patience whatever befalls you...." (Qur'an 31:17)and "Be not sad, surely Allah is with us." (Qur'an 9:40)
"So do not become weak, nor be sad..." (Qur'an 3:139)
"Allah is sufficient for us, and He is the best Disposer of affairs. So they returned with Grace and Bounty from Allah. No harm touched them; and they followed the good Pleasure of Allah. And Allah is the owner of Great Bounty." (Qur'an 3:173-174)
"And put your trust in Allah if you are believers indeed..." (Qur'an 5:23)
"O you who believe! Seek help in patience and the prayer..." (Qur'an 2:153)
Verily, with hardship there is relief" (Qur'an 94:6)
"Perhaps Allah may bring victory or a decision according to His Will." (Qur'an 5:52)
And the Prophet Muhammad (sallallahu 'alayhi wa sallam) said to 'Abdullah bin 'Abbas r.a.:
"..Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him before you. Get to know Allah in prosperity and He will know you in adversity... And know that victory comes with patience, relief with affliction, and ease with hardship."
"Repel (the evil) with one which is better, then verily! He, between whom and you there was enmity (will become) as though he was a close friend." (Qur'an 41:34)
"….and harm them not. And put your trust in Allah." (Qur'an 33:48)
"Those who repress anger, and who pardon men; verily, Allah loves the good-doers."
(Qur'an 3-134)
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 11:02 AM
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