May 5, 2012:Oh take me back to the start.. =)
Life is a constant struggle; a race.. ♥
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy *o5o512*.
I love autumn.. I've always loved autumn.. & God I hope I get to meet autumn one day.
Trees are.. the very representation of resurrection.
They were planted.. fight through heavy rains, stormy weather & crazy heat.
Withstanding all that; they also benefit. From the nutrients of the sunlight & the patience..
Trees.. going through the 4 seasons they grow; they die; & they awaken once again
springing new leaves and starting anew but remembering everything.
They don't run away. They can't. They're trees. And trees are awesome.
These days I've been wondering.. when that time comes;
Will I be old? Will I be young? In what situation I wonder..
I imagine my heartbeat & breathing quickening in pace & then dramatically slow down.
But I can't imagine what I'd be thinking then.
Would I be satisfied..? Would I feel relief..?
After all these years.. what seemed like forever is finally coming to an end.
Would I be glad?
It might be a long time coming(though I hope not too long) but when it does..
I'd like to be proud of myself.
Some jovial excitement surging through my immobile limbs as I face serenity; bliss.
It'd be so nice if it ends that way. I hope it ends that way..
Insya'Allah.
Perseverance is key..
Nooobody said it was easyy~
Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast; and now I'm yelling kiss my S.
Six foot five, 220 pounds, Hailing from rock bottom, loserville, nothing town;
there's no reason you should ever have you head down.
It's gonna take a couple right hooks, a few left jabs
for you to recognize you really ain't got it bad.
Give me scars, give me pain and then save me, save me, save me.
If you fall, pick yourself up off the floor.
& when your bones can't take no more, remember what you're here for.
Half the population's just waiting to see me fail.
Yeah right, you're better off trying to freeze hell. ;)
There goes the fighter.. that kid's a fighter.
They'll say of me; Here comes the fighter.. this one's a fighter.
"Because more than pain, I am worn..
I feel like I've lived this story for a thousand years.
And I'm ready now to sleep.
I'm ready to let go.
I'm ready for the story to end now.
I'm ready to feel your peace..
the sound of your voice..
Telling me I'm done, I've won, I'm there-
But I know I know this place.
I've been here before..
I'm going to sleep now.
I'm going to sleep..
Please don't ask;
Please don't ask.
Just let me sleep.
Just let me sleep with your words upon my tongue:
`Oh mankind,indeed you are ever toiling towards your lord,
painfully toiling... But you shall meet Him' (84:6)"
-Yasmin Mogahed
Ya ever feel like your train of thought's been derailed?
That's when you press on.. Lee nails!
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:04 PM
♫|Nostalgia|
|Melancholy|♪
