May 9, 2011:Good Lord. DD=
Ohh Dear God..
Dear diary,, *o7o511 Monday.
Seriously gotta type this down now.
'else when my mood improves,
i won't be able to remember let alone type my honest thoughts down.
Brace yourself. Vulgarity coming.
The only reason any possible "you, me, we, us didn't happen 's coz..
i couldn't fathom the immensity of da 'fuck you anywhos did not give.
L is sacrifice. Yeahh 'ya think so? Bullshh.
The word is pathetically taboo~
Mmnhh. So much for "he's diff, "his humble, " 'boy won't hurt me.
Where did all that ego & contradicting 'self come from?
Why'd ya have ta go & learn that from me? -.-
Ahh.
asdfghjukl;
People change.. after me.
They become more egotistical.
*We become similar.
Like poles repel huhh..
Updates on AngryB.ver party la'er!! ^^V
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 7:32 AM
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Ohh sweet heavens..
Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*o6o511* .Sunday.
To all the mummyzz out there..
Happy Mothers' day "LOVED"s.
The sacrifices that all mothers take..
Only God knows.. & the big guy up there also knows..
That they deserve more than what we can give.
Therefore.. We can only do our best.
Not just today. Everyday is Mothers' Day. ♥
So i rollerbladed up to Lot1 to meet Winanto~ xD
So i was right! It was most definitely for Mothers' day.
Returned his cameraaa~ =) & If he reads my blog today too..
Shout out to ya dudee!!~ xPP had fun?
& after that mummy & i headed to KallangLeisurePark to catch a movie!
"The roommate.
Seriously.. Not bad~ ;D
MAJOR crush on Cam Gigandet. heehee~
Well hello babycakes!
Sexcited for tomorrow~
Things are going to happen.
We're making it happen. Won't disappoint.
Rest assured KittyMummyDearest.
Today Mother's day.. Tomorrow Beaver's day. ^^V
p.s. My movie seating was on G-6.
...............
Coz we so fly like'a G6!!~
Ahahhahaha! hahahh~ hahh.. *Kayy i'll shuddap now.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:30 AM
May 8, 2011:
"When you're happy you have a sort of *glow.."
Whutt?
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*o8o511* .
External hard drive! How could you?
You made me feel so fcuked.
& people rubbed salt on my wounds.
Thank God I found another way out but my school work is all gone.
#Applaud please
Ahh..... I got over it.
Lunch with JunFa~
After that we hit MarinaSquare!!~
Finally got the digits on my Full hi-lo rocker set up. ♥
Not sure if i wanna get a HiLo or a normal Crescent rocker.
But then i seriously need the kaching2 in my sack 1st.
Haha. Vee, if you think it's gonna be that easy..
Dream on ahh.........................................
STARBUCKzz!!~ ^^V
mmnhh~
So.. just saw a vid on bullying.
-ClickHereToKpo2-
Bloody IDIOTs ahh.. y'know these lil' girls.
#SinglishModeON.
Till the day she stands up for herself.
But then they'll get what they deserve.. #Karma'sABitch
So i sha't bitch more. Not my place either.
Hatred multiplies like a plague.
Truly Epidemic.
More photos!!~
Till the sun sets..
We'll enjoy the day thoroughly.
The sound of music everywhere..
What seemed normal..? Becomes Ab-norm.
HHAHA~ JunFa! =))
Cute or what?? hahaha!
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:34 AM
May 7, 2011:I just stopped showing it.
I just stopped showing it.
Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*o6o511* .Friday.
So today was a chaotically AWESOME day.......
Hahaha! Did i say how much i loved my class? I LOVE my class.
Ahaha~ Here's a sneak peek of ytd's drawing lessons!
That's my faci up there~ xDD
PAO & AQILAHH!!~ haha~ ;D
Karthegasu!!~ Next stop, Khatib! *TeetTeetTeetTeet~
This isn't even right Khatib! -.- LoLL!
After school.. went home with DarDar.
Had lunch at Lot1. xD
"What if i was in her place? Would you take a pic of me-"
Me: NO. -.-
I have the best mum in the world.
But i take her for granted.
& should bite my tongue.
I love her so much only God knows the fear I have of losing her.
Bus ride to school with Lovezz!!~ ♥
'was like we planned it all.
One by one we "collected classmates.
Awesome-ness. \m/
Faci!!~ So prretty. xP Nenie~
Here's what we did today!!~
Line up guys~
Smile for the camera~ xP
PanTao & FatinF. setting up lighting equip.
Teddy & the Two-staged Tripod~
Ee. Me & the boom pole.
Hari!!~ Hari2 Shuffl- Haha~ Cameraman seyy~
All set guys~ We're good to go! xDD
-Filming in progress-
NOT!! hahaha~
Replug internalzz after school.
Omg asdfghjkl;
It's okay.
I'm only gonna move forward.
Hi guys! Meet Replug. ♥
Work hard?
Play hard.
Seriously. hha! DIVAS.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:30 AM
May 6, 2011:Karma. Just desserts.
♥LaLa Land™
Are you?
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*o5o511* .Thursday.
Hope they'd reply a lil faster so i can get my work done by weekend.
Or else i won't have much time to collate, snip & edit the video...
Honestly.. i think the way i treat someone..
plays largely on 1st impression/1st way of treatment..
Or a huge turning pt. which alters my behaviour towards someone..
Most often, naturally.. because i can't really steer my actions.
i see things/days in the light of way in which i want it to happen.
If it doesn't happen.. i get stressed up. That or..
I just get thrown off course.
Making me asdfghjkl;
This is NOT a good thing.
Because it's like disturbing my soundwaves.
Making it stop short & i have no idea where to go.
Becoming dissonance as a result to the inconsistency in my surroundings.
I really hope..
that people won't give up on me as much as i personally want them to.
It's all lies my brain tells myself. That's only coz the signal's gone haywire.
Lalalalala~ my system is crashing too much, too often.
To the point of no return. This knows no end.
I wanted to say, I think you are tensed up psychologically. And I really like you:)
Okay own up. Seriously. NOW. Lest you forget.. I'm a cat.
Don't wait till I die of curiousity. #LengthsI'dGoThrough
& hate to admit how true this is. Hha.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:20 AM
May 5, 2011:
Eff-ed up sleepy.
Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*o4o511* .Wednessday.
So busy today.....
Had a lot of fun though. =/
Spent all of after sch running around everywhere
chasing after the footage we need. *sigh.....
Band prac went well. =)) Feels more in sync.
& we were playing more honestly i guess. Reminds me of..
The old days. =/
Haha! Okay seriously band prac was fun.
How much i miss this. Putting my soul into what i love.
After band prac, met up with Winanto at Reel rm while waiting for
Khloe & Fifie to finish up with the meeting & stuff.
Saw a sight of the library i rarely saw.
Haha! Indonesians conquer all.
Got to play "in-the-dark" pool last minute!
've been getting more & more new experiences..
the kind the "old me" would've never gotten to see.
Beautiful feeling.. to be honest.
I'm moving forward.
Not just standing there being stagnant.
Dinner with Fluffy, Jace, Khloe & Sean!
Lesdon asdfghjkl; -.-
He scuks coz he didn't join us.
Hahahahaha! *so i said. =P
p.s. o439hrs & i'm still effing awake. Just done with photoshop.
So tired. Hungry #again. But i shall go back to sleep.
1230 class later on. #Drawing. Yes! No laptop.
But i have to go to school early to record whoever's left.
Then after school me & the girls in class are gonna head out to town!
Ohh! & i have not completed the DrawingAssignment which is due later on. xP
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:02 AM
May 3, 2011:
*Choke. *Hard breathing.
Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*o3o511* .Tuesday.
Why does today.. this. Feel like the end of us?
Feel like i'm losing a family. *Lost.
Concrete staircase as thy haven..
with wings so warm in welcoming embrace.
Silk feathers soft & fabricated by the pigment of my imagination.
Caresses a treasure trove of diamonds sliding down complexion.
I refuse to type in proper sentences.
2115hrs:
Just reached home from dinner with the VietWannazz~ ♥
God knows how i got to love them so much.
Really would do anything to keep us together. All 25.
Honestly if i could, i would've.
The flashbacks. Omg just like in the movies.
Driving past with the speed of light.
The scenes fading in & out.
But let's forget "TheEnd".
p.s. on a side note:
You don't care. No really you don't. Trust me on this.
#Here to say goodbye.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:05 AM
May 2, 2011:
Stop Vexing yourself Vee.
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*o2o511* .Monday.
You're supposed to be "TheVexatious" not "TheVexed".
Whyyy? Shall not type about this.
Arghh!! PMS-ing. Literally.
But you didn't need to know that. =X
Them: KakSyidah! Why you & AbgEin broke up ahh?
Me: I don't know I swear.
Them: Who asked ahh?
Me: Me why?
Them: Why ahh?
Me: Don't have feelings for him.
Them: How long you guys together ahh?
Me: I don't knowwww~
Them: Everything you dunno. I know. I know that time you fight.
Me: Huhh? When & Where? How? This is amusing me.
Them: That time you guys fight because you came late or something.
Me: Ohh! That time he got jealous of me coming hm with my bestfriend.
-Wait why am i explaining things to you?-
Them: He got jealous of your bestfriend? What only!
Me: Jyeahh.
Mehh.
A couple'a hours back, upon reaching home..
Zai, Ahmad & Arrasyid came down Cck to chill. O.o
Scares me how much those kids know.. My younger neighbzz.
MORE than me.
Hahaha. WTH.
Ahmad & Arrasyid: "Pecah rahsia!"
Me: "Not much of a secret lorhh." -.-
Seriously. What the hell.
Ohh dear me.
NongNongAgo..
#WhenIConsideredBoyfriends.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 2:58 AM
May 1, 2011:
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Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*o1o511* .Sunday.
Tis the season for all things sweet.
Shall leave the bitching/gossiping/backstabing to everyone else.
Dear God, teach me.
Help me.
Lead me to learn & be so thankful to the very core of my soul..
For what i have been blessed with & the lessons i have encountered.
Difficulty is only temporary. With God as your guidance.
No matter what religion you come from.
If God is your guidance..
I believe morals come as basic & faith, priority.
Regardless whether you are strong in this sector.
& Dear God i pray to you, to help lighten my hands.
RT @IslamicThinking:
Whoever supplicates for his brother in his absence,
an angel is appointed to his side who says,
"Ameen & may you be blessed with the same."
This post is meant to strengthen my morals..
As opposed to propaganda for my faith & beliefs.
Insya'Allah.. Amin.
TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:13 PM
:Kick it.
Shit. Title pic so not in sync with playlist.
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*3oo411* .Saturday.
Over thinking is just fcuked up. Honest thought.
Need a sugar-packed overdose of sweetzz.
FML.
Jealousy's the ugliest root of all evil.
muhaha. -.-
Wee~
*runs into wall.
So anyway.. I need redbull. I need wingzz.
I need to..
.....
Fly.
Dream catch me when i fall.
I shall tell you this..
I shan't care too much about people who cares for me none.
In fact I have a history of doing so..
& having done, repeating the process.
RT @Jas5min:
Reckless = Regret
Hate knowing too much. I'm neither naive nor gullible.
God knows how may times I've repeated that.
God knows how many people still don't get it & can't.
They say ignorence is bliss. What is the opposite but my life?
AND PLEASE DON'T AUTO ASSUME.
Beetch. Honestly?
Just coz i blog about love it's automatically about a crush.
Just coz i blogged about you once it's automatically about you.
Just coz, Just coz, Just coz. I'll shove that in your face.
Just be weary but not paranoid.
Just understand me but not judge me.
That's all i'm asking for & if you think it's too much?
Don't let the door slam you on the way out.
#Mindfcuk.
Ohh. & just because i posted this doesn't mean..
I'm having problems with anyone.
Actually i'm not at all angry.
Just wanna get this straight.
Don't you think we ought to know by now..?
Don't you think we should've learnt somehow..?
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TalkingToStars. ♥
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:29 AM
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