Jul 29, 2010:Updated. the light.. haha!
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy *29o71o* .
Slowly losing control..
can’t find my way out of dreams and into reality..
These days.. it’s been too easy to get into day dreams.
Even more so difficult to get out.
Staring into blank space..
the thoughts I have not just in my mind but in front of my eyes..
Images so vivid and clear my head gets numb each time I get pulled into my play land.
I SWEAR it isn’t a good thing.
When my head thinks too much and I get stuck in a daze too frequently.
Like yesterday where I almost got hit by a motorcycle.
Hahahaha! *sure I’m laughing now..*
Suriah was so shocked she just shouted my name but couldn’t move.
Her legs were planted on the pavement.
I think one day I might die from a car accident.
Unless I can stop spacing out..
it’s like my soul is having an out of body experience.
Like the ribbons tying it to my body is not tied on properly..
And ohh gosh my health.
WHAT THE FUCK is going on?!
Everything aches at the most random of times..
Lost control of my body before band prac in the practice rooms..
it just went numb and I could only regain control after awhile..
gritted my teeth and was thinking
|“fcuk, not now.. not again..”|
haha. FML.
I remember a time I used to love running and SOCCER!
Oh yeah~ running around on the fields with my friends..
or street soccer on the cool pavements under the void decks..
but ever since secondary school
and the 1st time I lost control of myself while running for PE
I started to despise the very thought..
my limbs feeling so loose like I swallowed some drug and can’t stop moving..
grinning like a fool..
the muscles I can’t fcuking control.
I HATE this feeling..
it’s despicable.
Mum says it’s because of my lack of blood cells..
well..
till the day I get the full body check up I’ve been meaning to get
4 years ago and have yet to till now.. ughh.
hahaha.. i'm an idiot. ♥
an out of control fool.
Labels: Life and its shortcomings
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:42 PM
♫|Nostalgia|
|Melancholy|♪
