somebody hold me down quick.
i think im going insane!!
so stressed. so sick.
the headache, the temperature, the high.
the atmosphere.
the work.
the pressure.
the you!
ohh god.

trying to tell a story..
maybe that's why im epically failing.
because i tried.
not testing on humour though.
testing on whether my lines would be heard.

This ain't emo.
This is freedom of expression.
i don't go to the skatepark with some
"buddies"
with THICK black eyeliner
black-polished fingernails
& matching black uniforms
crying our eyes out "together-gether".

like i keep saying.. the world is a funny funny place.
with funny funny people.
& funny funny circumstances.
just because one person always does the expected..
doesn't mean the less stand off-ish person won't.
but we stereo-typically put them in that category.
poor souls..
or should i say lucky?
coz they grab the most attention less we don't forget
to Expect the unExpected.

sad girl. mad world.

what is Love but overrated.
words of which is uttered to bloody easily in our generation VXYZ.
& when we genuinely mean it..
what do we say..?
when the Is, Ls & Ys run out.
& no one is as trusting anymore.
crap right? thinking it's some random shit.
that's why OUR people are running out of faith.

Just like how electricity is running out.
how the world's resources is running out.
how good music is almost extinct.
& we're doing our best to keep it alive.

whispers from beyond..
if Love is Surrender..
whose War is it anyway?

good question.
but who is to answer all that is needed to be..?
why are the most important things unheard
to the person who needs to know it most?

our hearts beat at about the same pace..
we look at the same faces..
similarities between 2 mediums so vast..
each other's empty voids could be filled.
humans are masochistic, sadistic & neurotic..
a little too much that we're intoxicated by each others'..
without realising it.

pathettique. |spells pathetic.|
drowning in self pity & never wanting to change.
assuming the unneeded & always waiting for the other party to do it.
so regardless of what is recorded down here on this
"cirque du freak-ish" grounds..
you humans are not gonna change.
if you ask "then why bother to even start?"
"when you're gonna give up halfway"
it's cause i'm a fool who keeps getting even the dimmest glimst of hope.
but the stupidity that is faced always makes it disappear.
when are they gonna realise..
& wake up.









so what was this post all about again..?
i have no effing clue. O.o||

but this isn't a fairytale.
& nothing we do now would end our story.
the world is like a stage..
more than just a stage.
it's that dimmed puppet theatre kind.
& the people in it aren't just merely players.
they put on masks & fictitious facades.
thinking no one will guess their paradox.
living life each day with that heavy burden.

but some would know better.
they know these poor souls for who they are..
love them for who they are.
regardless of the people realising it.
to my dear bLs..
don't try so hard to smile..
you have loads of friends who care for you genuinely..
don't hurt yourselves acting like you just don't care.

we have our entries & exits.
soon you'd have to start a new chapter.
so when you leave this one. don't leave with any regrets.
cry if you have to.
scream if you want to.
the tears once shed will never come back.
the screams never twice heard.

not anymore..

if we miss this chance..
we might never get it again..