Oct 16, 2010:
Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*151o1o* .
OasisOctober.
Friday
ohh god. so sleepy.
=_=zZz
trying to keep my eyes open. O_o
thank you people. for keeping me awake. -.-
ytd was.. haha!
Love the faci. Too bad he's married. haha! wtf.
He called himself a LuckyBastard. kudos. x3
Always smiling.. ^^
----------------------------
so today.. our team2 did good.
some funny short skits & comically good chemistry.
a ton of laughter.
& super weird topics in class.
though it got dull somewhere at the end.. =(
after school. things just tipped off balance.
yeah well.
Decking.. the usual craziness. =)
Interesting/(ly) Funny convos.
when there's that.
people change towards the significant someone.
my sense is fairly well.
which makes this bad.
anyone actually understand my language?
kudos.
Labels: Life and its shortcomings, Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:41 AM
Oct 13, 2010:
Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*131o1o* .
OasisOctober.
WillingfulWednesday
Today was fun!
Like ytd only more laughter~
my group was filled with laughing gasses!
crazy peepz!
Faci reminds me of Deb[/Flow] in Finding Nemo.
The one in the fishtank talking to her reflection.
"hi~ helluuu~~"
After school i met some crazy cats i haven't seen in a while..
even more laughter! i'm dying.
haha~
missed them a lot..
Now i'm in the library with Yaya & LiLy. =)
imma die tomorrow. =_=||
*sigh*
ahh! i almost forgot..
love the faci really! for saying..
in your life.. you HAVE to go
♥travelling alone someday.
Labels: Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:36 PM
Oct 12, 2010:hmm..
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Tues-dayy*121o1o* .
OasisOctober.
ThankfulTuesday
Let's take a breather.
5 minutes..
an hour..
whatever we need.. & however long it takes.
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 5:33 PM
Oct 11, 2010:Chapter 17 going on 18.
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*111o1o* .
OasisOctober.
Monday
Read. My. Words.
i'll pretend i don't know.
tomorrow's the 1st day of Sem2 huh..
all the best!
열심히 할게.. ^^
wonder what'll happen tomorrow..
Entrepreneurship. ㅠㅠ
ahh well..
only once a week right?
kyaaa!!~ Digital Media Arts!
WAY better then entrepreneurship~ x3
either way..
Let's calm down..
Labels: Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:18 PM
:Let's.
Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*1o1o1o* .
OasisOctober.
StaleSunday
Cravings for sweet potatoes.. =(
You're being too obvious.
wow.. school's starting soon.
Meeting ChikaNura at noon tomorrow..
i'll work hard. =)
no more slacking.
will these be the end of Vee's 8yr slacking streak?
find out next time in..
the life of a CrazyCat~
nyahaha.. x3
ok whutt.
honestly i'm just crapping coz i've got nothing to say.
고구마 Latte 먹고싶어!!
식혜 도~
Latte sounds good right about now..
wanna go out for a walk.. =(
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 1:17 AM
Oct 9, 2010:You are, lovely.. more beautiful than the star light in the night sky.
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*o91o1o* .
OasisOctober.
SurprisingSaturday
Vee.. as you grow older.. you become more weirder. =/
이상해.. 아이고 정말 이 자식이 가.
i've had 2 possible plans today.
[x] Birthday Chalet at PaSirRis CostaSands.
[x] Meet my cuzzy at Fam function at PaSirRis.
어쨌든 PaSirRis 잖아..
in stead of going.. i stayed home..
|to cook & clean.|
O.o||
신기하다 네?
haha. maybe i was wrong.
maybe i really was the one who had to change.
either way it's been easier for me to do chores these days.
no clue why but..
i've no complaints. x3
asked mama how to cook the sambal for sambal telur.
rebus telur no probbie.. just have to dump it in the sambal.
Papa said it tastes great.
waahh.. surprising. i got praised.
khehe!~
amazing..
i showed them they made the right choice..
for keeping me.. they made the right choice.
ytd/earlier today at abt o2oo..?
me & mama went Esso for snacks & a long walk.
been awhile..
이 느낌이 좋다~ 아주! ^^
i've been good. i've been taking care of my relationships.
i hope you're proud of me..
& that i'll stay these way even through sem2.
Labels: Life is like a rollercoaster road, Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 9:19 PM
Oct 7, 2010:a change of scenery?
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*o71o1o* .
OasisOctober.
TacitThursday
okay so it's some hours over noon now..
just got home & finished my chores.
in the morn, had to wake up early & run to the bank.
after that some other errands yadda2.
noon, went with mama to buy "breakfast".
some conversations popped out.
see.. my godbrother's parents asked me if
i'd like to come along on an overseas holiday trip some time..
talking about mama's possible oncoming trip to bali
with the other teachers..
the topic sorta just popped out.
& surprisingly..
she's okay with it.
"i think you're old enough so long as you sleep in an all girls rm."
well.. =/
guess i'm at that age where she can trust me enough for that.
must've done something to make her believe i'm responsible.
uber cool. though i don't expect anything..
i'm not the kind of person who frequently get
blessings to fall into her lap for free.
on the contrary.
i'm just happy she trust me that much.
Labels: everyone need friends in life...
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 2:50 PM
Oct 6, 2010:want to always be.. "that kid".
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Wed-dayy*o61o1o* .
OasisOctober.
Wow-edWednesday
doing my best to feel lighter.
keeping everything clean.
making sure everything's done.
no delays.
if i were a construction worker..
i'd be worried if i'd abandon everything halfway.
i get demoralised easily.
haha. here's to hoping that'll change.
Labels: Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:03 PM
:Looks like a strawberry, tastes like a pineapple. One that's definitely something different.
Dear diary,, Tue-dayy*o51o1o* .
OasisOctober.
TerrifiedTuesday
had DoubleChoc at WestCoast McD just now
right before night studies..
sesungguhnya kita telah menghampiri akhir zaman..
fasa ke empat..
kuatkanlah keimanan kami..
walau apapun yang terjadi..
ke jalan yang lurus kami harus junjungi..
amin.
people.. don't spurt your mouth out.
jangan mencaci.. jangan menghina.
before you make fun of or look down on people..
tell me what's the value of
can't answer?
God's telling you not to be such a SmartArse.
there will always be.. human limitations.
it's not possible to know EVERYTHING there is.
so don't judge. we have no right.
Labels: Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 4:07 AM
Oct 4, 2010:Life.. how's life?
Dear diary,, Mon-dayy*o41o1o* .
OasisOctober.
MacchiatoMonday
back & ready to conquer the world!
nyaha! nyahaha haha! *cough2* nyahaha?
i meant conquer the dustbunnies in the house.
gotta bathe & finish the chores before bedtime.
i had a long enough "holiday" sleeping over his house.
guess mum is accustomed to this already. x3
surprising how okay she is with all this.
i missed her.. =(
glad she's safely back.
BIG HUGS!
& i'm glad me & KakIka & Fina are all okay.
i'm NEVER taking any sides y'all.
it all depends on Fad.
i'm saying this because no one else matters.
you people have to work yourselves out.
i'm the "Gawd" sister.
nyahahahaha~
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 3:40 PM
Oct 3, 2010:
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Sun-dayy*o31o1o* .
OakWiltOctober.
ScarySunday
so sleepy just now.
eyes were so heavy.
but was woken up at about o5oohrs+.
thunder & lightning.
just had to cover my ears & close my eyes..
haishh..
everyone's still sleeping.
wanna go home but i can't find some of my clothes.
but i can't wake them up can i?
haishh..
ahh.. i really wanted to take pictures this year.
guess i got distracted.
been a while huh.. since you saw me.
ahh what am i saying.
well..
Labels: Life and its shortcomings, Life is like a rollercoaster road
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:07 PM
Oct 2, 2010:Vacation of my own.
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Sat-dayy*o21o1o* .
OakWiltOctober.
SoapySaturday
mm.. i feel a bit more calm now.
just had a bath & returned a missed call.
everyone else in the house is sleeping. zzz~
anyway.. my ex picked up. haha. stressed talking to him.
then he passed the phone to cuzzy!
talked about whether they're coming here.
cuzzy say not sure.. but botak wants to tag.
haha! hopefully they come down..
fell asleep at o4o5+hrs ytd.
all the stuffs we did~ haha.
fad tanye: "asl mata hari nie cam sepet gitu?"
hahs.. i didn't realise how bad it's getting.
stoned a lot more ytd.
seriously should snap out of it.
i was right.. with mama gone..
all that's left is a house full of Vampires.
escaped again.
feels way more bliss here..
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 10:00 AM
Oct 1, 2010:
Dear diary,, Fri-dayy*o11o1o* .
OakWiltOctober.
FallingFriday
breeze of change.
mama's gonna go overseas for 3 days.
the atmosphere at home is gonna be completely stale.
i won't be able to stay home much.
what's left at home..
are a bunch of serial killers.
haha. hahs..
well..
it's okay. i'll just sleep over at his house
& help for the preparations & stuff.
just nice. 3 days.
just like last year eyhh guys?
i hope..
aahh..
我 不在乎. 我 真的 不在乎 了。
o641hrs :
mama left..
i saw the lights in the sky.. tearing the clouds apart.
opened the window.. stared awhile..
& in an instant it's gone.
Ya Allah.. help guide mama safely there..
& guard her where i can't..
safely till she gets back..
bismillahhirahmannirrahim..
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 12:00 AM
Sep 30, 2010:
♥LaLa Land™
Dear diary,, Thur-dayy*3oo91o* .
SecernSeptember.
Thursday
woke up lying on baby jr.'s bed
overhearing a conversation.
helped her finish her templates while she slept till o4oohrs.
then exhausted, i turned in too..
didn't mean to eavesdrop.
but their voices got into the room.
poor girl..
i don't think her mum will let go of her anytime soon.
so restricted.. exhausted..
the world of solitary confinement inside herself.
her blank soul-less eyes revealed itself too clearly.
reminding me too much of myself, it's scary.
& me.. a world too loose. too free..
so transparent that i'm suffocating with lack of air.
i need people to actually pull my hand.
at least i'd be able to see my self-worth.
Anyway..
yesterday was a sort of reinforcement as to why
i don't take up pure arts as a module.
i could never do the best of my capabilities
something i was forced to.
datelines, due dates..
"don't stop running, keep going."
"be sure to do this, don't ever do that."
"you can do better than that, at least hit the limit."
80%. you have to get at least 80%.
if you understand it's easy to get even a perfect score.
well..
well well..
the fine line between genius and insanity.
i may not be Ms prodigal genius..
but insanity is someone i know very well.
you can say a bestfriend?
maybe even closer than that.
doppelgänger
will you run away with me for a day?
just a day..
we'll be 2 idiots doing everything that makes us happy.
no matter what the cost, we will never regret.
come with me before you see her..
| the alter ego | the double walker |
even worse.. before i see her myself.
for then you won't be able to see me anymore.
Labels: Life's autumn past.. i stand on winter's verge.
SyidahAinVeeJr.; 4:44 PM
♫|Nostalgia|
|Melancholy|♪
